Weak For Him || Darkness Book #1 ✔️

Chapter 21 | Drunken Call

Stacey's Pov

After Victor dropped me off at home, all I can now think about is what I told him. Why did I have to mention fucking Liam. Laying on my bed I pull out my phone and call Mia knowing Sian's at work.
"Hey girl" she says answering making me sigh.
"I need to be high.. Come over" I tell her feeling shit.
"I'll be there in ten babe" she says and we hang up. Hopefully a spliff can put some things into perspective.
Ten minutes later I hear the front door andnp then someone coming up the stairs and I see Mia walk in.
"Hey, your mum let me in. What's wrong babe?" She asks walking into my room sitting next to me.
"I told Victor about Liam" I say and she gawks at me like I've grown another head.
"Why? I thought things were going good between you two? What happened?" she asks and I just shrug dropping back onto my pillow. I can't do this again. I thought my heart was slowly starting to repair.. for it to just break again.
"I told him I wanted more and that I won't do it again. But he doesn't clearly want that" I tell her the brief story.
"If he can't commit to you babe like you want then let him go. He's not worth your tears" she says as I begin to tear up. Wiping my face harshly, I sit up and look at her.
"I want to get drunk.. and high, let's go buy some alcohol" I suggest and of course she's down for it,
"Obviously.. Alcohol always helps me" she says and I look at her raising a brow.
"It helps you get laid by a random.. I can't move on like that. It's took me two years to even be interested in another guy.. fuck sake. I don't know what to do?" I tell her. What if I can't move on from Liam. He will always be lingering in my head.. my heart.
"Can you remember Leon and what Liam did to him because he was interested in you. Now Victor wants to be asking questions. This isn't good babe" she says and I nod motionless. What have I done? Liam will kill him in a blink of an eye and feel know way. Fuck!
"I remember like it was yesterday. Why did he even go that far? He didn't even want me like that.. What he thinks no one else can? What the fuck, Mia" I say getting annoyed thinking about him. Eughhh I hit my pillow and stand up.
"Let's go before I go crazy" I say and grab my purse walking out my room.

***

Arriving at a bar, I walk up and order us both drinks and pay following Mia to a table.
"I need this" I say and down the drink looking at Mia as she sips it. What's wrong with her?
"How's you babe. I haven't seen you in a few days. You still seeing that dickhead, Marcus?" I ask her rolling my eyes.
"He's good sex, that's it babe don't worry about me I don't get attached" she says flipping her long hair over her shoulder. I wish I was like that. No attachments.

***

After a few rounds we head out to a club and do shots for most of the night.
"I miss him" I say drunkenly to her and she laughs rolling her eyes. Who am I even missing at this point, Liam.. Victor.. my bed.. fuck!
"You're just drunk. You're meant to be getting over them not missing them" she tells me handing me a vodka coke. Which one though?
"I think I'm going to call him and give him a peice of my mind. How dare he not want me" I tell her getting irritated. I pull my phone from my purse and walk to the beer garden. Looking around I see a few scattered people smoking but I consentrate on my task.
"You don't need to do this Stacey" I hear Mia say from the doorway pulling out a joint. I want some of that first.
"Yes I do. Pass that too" I tell her pointing to the spliff. Sparking it, I pull a few long drags and take it down feeling the burn in my lungs before I blow it out and repeat it needing more before I call Victor. Yes, Victor! I don't have Liam's number..
Looking at his number, I hit call and wait for him to answer.
"Hello babygirl" he says and I scoff. Is he for real?
"You call me that but don't want me.. Why?.. Why do you not want me Victor? What's wrong with me?" I ask him confidently drunk puffing away on the joint.
"Are you drunk babygirl, where are you?" he asks but I ignore him. Fuck that, answer me!
"Answer my question first Victor. What's wrong with me? Why can't you love me?" I say quietly, feeling beyond vulnerable and he's quiet for a moment.
"It's not you babygirl. It's just what happened before, I won't get hurt again" he tells me and my heart beats rapidly. What the actual fuck!
"So you don't want me because you think I'll hurt you. Are you stupid Victor. After what I told you about Liam how could you think that.. fuck!" I say passing Mia the join and she gives me a thumbs up and it makes me feel better.
"I won't get hurt, Stacey. I'm sorry, now tell me where you are?" he demands and I laugh at him.
"You just want me for sex just like Liam fucking Johnson did. Why do you care where I am? You wana come fuck me?" I spit getting annoyed with him.
"What did you just say? Liam Johnson.. Why does that sound so familiar?" he asks and I freeze not meaning to say his name. I quickly hang up and look to Mia.
"What did I just do?" I say looking at her wide eyed.
"Who cares take this" she says handing the joint back.
I stare at my phone and just put it into my bag pissed at myself. Taking myself back inside getting lost in the music and dance my way to the dance floor holding Mia's hand and lose myself completely.

***

My phone keeps ringing and ringing and I don't no what to say to him now I've dropped his whole fucking name. What was I even thinking calling him drunk. Fuck!
Standing back at the bar I order another round of shots with my vodka and drown my sorrows.. Literally. I seriously fucked up. Big time!