Becoming My Twin Sister

Chapter 1

Becoming My Twin Sister

Chapter 1

I'm alone, sitting at the breakfast bar in the kitchen in complete silence. The artificial glow of the laptop screen gently highlights my lonely, dejected figure as I hold my head in my hands. I'd been staring at the screen for hours, not moving once from my seat. My family had gone to bed hours ago and yet here I am, still sitting in front of the same email I'd open after dinner.

"What am I going to do!" I mummer as I look up from my hands and read the email again.

The email was from the local training hospital. I'd not been able to go to education, due to issues in my past, but I was desperate to make something of myself. I wanted to prove to everyone that I wasn't a complete waster and that I wasn't stupid! I'd applied for a nursing internship, in the hope that I could learn on the job and get my qualifications that way, without stepping foot in another school. I hadn't told anyone in my family about this, as I never thought I'd get it. Sadly, I was right.

"We reject to inform you that due to your criminal record, we can not take you on for this role," I read out to myself, mocking It as much as I could.

I sigh and return my head to my hands. This was my chance! They only have one space a year and I'm not going to get it! My past had blown it for me!

"Fuck it!" I exclaim as I roll my head around in my hands. "Why did I steal that fucking car!? Such an idiot!"

I hadn't told my parents that I was applying for this, due to being a little embarrassed about wanting to become a male nurse. Silly really, but that's just how it's been. I know they'd be proud of me and with the recent pandemic, I thought working as a nurse would make me happy also. Would give me a reason to get up in the morning.

I guess it doesn't matter now, I didn't get it! I'd always doubted myself with anything like this. Unlike my identical twin sister Lilly, she would have got in no issues at all. It's so frustrating! She's so smart and talented at everything she does. Good thing she's already got a job, or I'd never get a look in.

That's when I looked back up from my hands and started typing. As an ironic, self-deprecating joke, I started filling out another application form. This time as my twin sister Lilly.

"Want another job Lilly," I smirk as I click the send button.

Yawning and slapping the laptop lid closed in annoyance, I continue sitting in the silent pitch-black room. I roll myself off the stool and reach for my phone. Flicking up, I turn the phone's flashlight on and start navigating my way to my room. Tiptoeing around, trying my best not to wake anyone as I creep into my room. Gently placing my phone onto my side table, It lights up the room. I could see dust flecks floating around in the phone's light as I flip open my bedsheets and jump in.

"What the hell am I going to do!" I mutter to myself again as my head hits the pillow.

I lay still for a little while, just watching the dust flecks float about in the light. I couldn't get my mind to stop grinding away. I'd really started worrying. If I didn't get a job this summer, my parents had threatened to kick me out!

"Crap," I grumble. "Looks like I'm going to have to take a crap job somewhere and have my soul crushed!"

Rolling onto my side, I reach out for the phone and turn the flashlight off. Even though the room was now dark, I couldn't close my eyes. I knew tomorrow, I'd have to start looking for another job! Thankfully, the house was going to be empty tomorrow, so a late start was on the cards.

Eventually, my mind switched off enough for me to go to sleep. I awake the next morning, all twisted in my bedsheets and rather disoriented. Stretching and reaching for my phone, I look at the time. It was eight in the morning, well before my alarm was due to go off! Feeling a bit grumpy, I slam the phone back down on the side table and throw the sheets over my head.