Love Grows (Love series: book 3)

Chapter 13.

Ella

Taking a deep breath and knocked on my mom's or should I say Riggs's front door. I don't know why I'm so nervous to talk to my own mom, the same woman who gave birth to me and who raised me.

I don't want to be angry anymore, I don't want to hold on to the hate about what she did, about the lies she told.

I'm tired, it's too hard to keep pushing her out of my life, it's not fair on Remi and it wouldn't be fair on the little one I'm carrying now.

It's time to put everything in the past and move forward as a family. And that starts today, by telling everyone who loves us about the baby.

This morning before we left, we handed Remi a T-shirt with the words.

"Soon to be a big sister" on it, she insisted on wearing it, but we explained that she had to keep her jacket on until mommy and daddy told everyone later on at grandpa's house.

She wasn't happy about that part, but the part of getting a baby brother or sister, she was excited about and told us she couldn't wait to name him or her.

"Ella honey...." I heard her voice say, looking up to see my mom now standing in the open doorway.

"Hey, mom..." I trailed off; mom just stares at me I see tears forming in her eyes.

"Come in...coming in.." she mumbled while making room for me to step in the house.

These last few weeks she's been staying at Riggs house, and I think she's ready to move in here with him, I know he wants her too, but I don't think she would do that unless things between us were sorted out, I know that because I know her. 

Standing in the middle of the foyer as she closes the door and then turns looks at me.

"Sorry for just showing up like this-;" I sighed, it really shouldn't be this hard to talk to her.

"You're welcome here anytime Ella, you know that," she says to me, taking a few steps closer towards me.

"Can I get you something to drink?" She added, oblivious trying to make conversation between us to cut the awkward tension around us.

"How about we just address the elephant in the room and talk it through".

"What is that you want to say?" Taking a breath in and out before making my way over to the sofa and took a seat.

Mom follows suit, either one of us saying another word.

"I'm sorry that it has taken me this long to reach out to you, I needed time" I began saying to her.

"I was mad for a long time. I wasn't mad that you kept Riggs a secret, I was mad that you brought him into my life, into my daughter's life under false pretenses. And I couldn't see past that, until now".

Mom looks at me, tears glossing over her green eyes. I didn't come here to make her feel bad or to make her cry, I came to heal the space between us.

"I never meant to do that, I just didn't know how to handle the situation and before I knew it, it was out of my control" Mom whispers.

"I know mom, I hate the space between us, I hate that we've gone months without talking, I just want to move forward because I'm tired of always fighting".

"I want that too honey, I've missed you every day. And it's been so hard to leave you be and give you the space that I know you needed, but my heart has been breaking every day because of it" she cried, moving closer to her and grabbed her hand gently, my own tears falling now because I've missed her so much too.

"No more space mom no more lies and no more secrets. Let's move forward as a family, all of us together" I cried happily.

"I want that so much; I really am sorry about my choices Ella. About the ones I made when you were born and the ones I made last year, if I could change it, I would in a heartbeat" Mom said to me.

"I know what it's like to live with regrets mom when it comes to trying to do what's right for your child, but if you don't try and move past them, all they will do is weigh you down-" I replied while carrying on.

"I'm okay now, so don't let yours do that to you, it's not worth it" squeezing her hand softly.

"I love you so much Ella" She cries as she pulls me in for a hug.

"I love you too mom, that will never change even when we fight," I say and then pull back from our hug and looked at her and smiled.

"Come on we have to go" I announced and got up from the sofa, mom looks at me confusedly.

"Where are we going, Riggs isn't back yet?" She asks me.

Placing my hand on my small bump, smiled before meeting our eyes once again.

"Riggs is already there, where we're meant to be going. Which is George's house-;" I broke off and came to a decision, one that I know Scott will understand.

"But before we go there, can I tell you a secret?" I added, mom still looking at me with the most confused look on her face but nods her head at me.

"I'm three months pregnant, and we're about to tell our whole family the news. But first I had to come and get you because you are our family too" I said.

As mom hears my words she jumps off the sofa, excitedly and a massive smile forms on her lips.

"You're having another baby, oh my god I can't believe it," she says to me.

"Yeah, I am, it's scary and it's amazing. And I want you a part of it, every step of the way mom".

"You've got me kiddo; I'm not going anywhere." She smiles.

"Well let's go and tell everyone else..." I announce with my own smile.

Mom nods her head and grabs her bag, as we make our way out of the house in the direction of our family, to share wonderful....yet overdue news.

And most of my worries are replaced with joy and love.