Her Happiness

CHAPTER NINE

CHAPTER 9

I awoke to the bright sunlight passing through my window. It might be a good idea to go out and enjoy the sun, i thought to myself. Maybe I should tell Jay? He needs some fresh air too. I scramble out of bed, hastily comb my hair into place, brush my teeth then walk towards the kitchen for some breakfast.

Jay wasn't up yet so I thought of making breakfast myself. I don't really know much about cooking but I'm sure I can whip something up. I decided to make omelet. I sure hope Jay wouldn't hesitate to eat it though. I've tried cooking our meals whenever it was just the two of us at home, but it always ended up all wrong so we'd order some pizza or chinese takeout instead. I gathered all the stuff I needed and started to do what I knew should be done. Wow, this is so hard, my subconscious says. It is hard, there's so much to be done, I don't know how or where to begin. I was finishing everything up when I felt tears sting my eyes once again. I don't have time to cry, there isn't anything I could do to change things anymore. Oh, who am I kidding? I wanna run away, hide somewhere and just cry myself out until I couldn't cry anymore. But I can't. Right now Jay needs me too, I can't leave the only family I have left.

I hastily wiped my eyes once I heard Jay comming down the stairs and into the kitchen. "Mornin' sis" he said as he sat on the stool next to the breakfast counter. "Mornin' Jay", I say, smiling at him. "You look better, slept well?" , Jay asked. "I did actually, I guess I was too worn out because of the crying and stress and stuff. Did you sleep well?" I answered. "Yup, I did. So whats for breakfast?", he asked eagerly. "Omelet" I said, smiling broadly at him. Oh he's laughing alright, inwardly though. "Well lets taste it then", he says.

Me and Jay ate in silence. I started to thing that he didn't like my cooking and that he was only putting up with it because he didn't want to disappoint me. "That was real good Avy", Jay said looking very satisfied. "You think you could live with my cooking now?" , I said jokingly. "As long as you learn to cook other dishes from this and you promise you won't kill me then yes, I guess I could live with it", he answered smiling that child-like smile all the girls at school blush about. This morning felt a bit more normal than I expected, but I like it, it's better.

As we make our way to the living room, the phone started ringing. "Who could be calling so early?", Jay wondered, reaching for the phone. "Hello?", Jay said. "Hey dude, how's everything holding up over there?". "Everythings cool, i guess . You gonna come over today?", Jay answered again, making me curious of who he was talking to. "Yeah, sure dude. Be there in 10", then Jay hung up.

My mind was suddenly filled with thoughts about Matt and my heart started racing just when Jay turned back to look at me. "Matt's comming over in 10" , he says with a huge grin.