My name is Bethy. Im a normal girl. I go to Fhs. I do not like my life. Its dull, boring, and painful. My parents say I love you, but that don't help me at all.
I try to be happy, but my normal life makes that VERY hard. I go to school, I laugh with my bffs, and then I go home. Then when im home, I feel depressed and suicidal. Yes, the school knows im depressed and suicidal. My guidance counselor trys to help me through it. But I dont feel like letting people in.
I feel like if I let people in, they'll hurt me, or find me a burden and leave me. I feel like I have no one to talk to. But whats odd, is all my friends say I can always talk to them. But I never do. I don't want to worry them. So I find my life, very difficult to live.
I try so hard to be happy and cheerful, but that quickly ends. So why bother trying?
Do you have any advice????
I need to do something to make me happy. I cant wait till March 12. By birthday. I really hope, I can do something fun on my big day.
