The Tale of the Ice Princess

The Halcyon Days - Chapter 13

Days passed since the incident and i felt no better than i did on that day. 

I went back to our spot the next day but she wasn't there , not that i expected her to be,  but some part of me hoped that she would be.

I kept going back , but after a week , i stopped . 

I blew it . I really lost her . She was not coming back . 

It made me feel empty, like she stole some part of me when she left.

On more than one occasion i would turn around , asking Cal -- no Callie , for her opinion , but was greeted with an empty space .

Losing her was one of the most painful things that had happened to me . She was the only one who actually knew me , who actually made me feel normal . 

 And now she's gone .

I passed my days buried in magic research , burying myself so deep in it that emotions ceased to matter . 

At least the that wolf was good for something. I thought bitterly . 

Following the incident , i went to the estate library to search what exactly that monstrous beast was.

It was a good distraction.

I discovered that in each pack of wind wolves , there would be a leader . These 'leaders' were like the elite version of normal wind wolves , with more extravagant marks on its' head, classified High. 

The classification for beasts goes as follows , Low , Med , High , Arch , Divine and Catastrophe, in ascending order. 

Normal wind wolves would be classified as a Low-level danger .  

We really were lucky to survive . 

I had thought more than once , but those kinds of thoughts lead to more unpleasant ones, mostly of her.

Some nights , i would dream of that day , the scene replaying itself in my mind vividly , forcing me to remember . Each time , i would wake up , tears rolling down my face . 

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It has been 3 months since the incident. Currently , it was Mid to Late Summer. 

But , i still could not get her hurt expression out of my mind . My memory of the incident was clear as day , tormenting me ,  forcing me to relive it . 

Sometimes i cursed my good memory, today was one of those times . 

I kept thinking of apologizing to her , but she was never at our usual spot . I tried to ask around about her in town but there was no one that went by her name . 

During our time together , she never revealed much personal information , much like me , so my search was drastically harder.

Now i regret not asking her . 

I wanted to be considerate of her feelings, when i saw how uncomfortable she was on the topic of her father,  i didn't want to bring up any more bad memories than i already had.

I tried expanding my search radius , determined to find her to apologize , but it was as if she had disappeared into thin air , not a single trace of her was left. 

I soon gave up my search , a part of me knowing that i could never find her . 

Cal - no Callie - was smart , if she wanted to be found , she would be. If she wanted to disappear , she would . 

Today i was doing some self experiments on mana manipulation , i wanted to try forcing my mana in place , so that it does not dye my hair . 

I was doing it at the manor's garden , which was not so much a garden and more of a training area . I did not want to go back to the forest , for reasons.