Please Don't Go (The Story of Us Book 3)

Chapter 21- Mistakes Were Definitely Made

Spencer's P.O.V.

I honestly thought that yesterday was the worst day of my life. First, JJ was being forced out and as hard as Director Sharp and Amanda fought, they couldn't get the higher-ups to let her stay. Then, almost as if whatever higher power exists wanted my day to be the absolute worst, Kristen showed up at the mansion and dropped a metaphorical A-bomb on Amy and me. Finding out she was pregnant was shocking enough, finding out that Hotch was the father was jaw-dropping. Once Amanda succeeded in calming Kristen down, she led her into our living room and asked her what happened.

Kristen sits on the sofa with her knees pulled up to her chest, hugging them to herself and for a brief moment I wonder if that can hurt the baby before she begins. "It all started a few weeks ago at Night Club. I saw Aaron there and it was the first time I had really talked to him since Haley's funeral, ya know?" She takes a shuddery breath before continuing.

"He was drinking a lot and you were staring at Spencer with googly eyes and he was drinking himself into a stupor while the rest of your team danced in drunken bliss. So I offered him a ride home, well more like commanded it but you get the point." Amanda nods her head, signaling that she does, in fact, get it. "Anyway, we get back to his apartment and I ask about Jack and he says that Jessica is babysitting him tonight and that's why he was at the club.

"I tell him that he can't drink like that just because he doesn't have his son to worry about. I knew that it was because of Haley, something I don't even get since she cheated on him and then left him, but whatever. Then Aaron breaks down and tells me that he misses me and that he was stupid for choosing Haley and the reason that he's taking her death so hard is because he feels guilty. He feels guilty because even though it was his fault Haley died and he would save her if he could, he said that when Foyet pulled the trigger, he was relieved it was Haley on the other end and not me."

"And I thought I was the psychopath in the family," Amanda mumbles and Kristen shoots her a look.

"I thought that he meant that he realized he loved me. Anybody would, but he was just trying to make himself feel better. It was all just a lie to get into my pants. He told me the next morning. I called him a dick and went on my own way. I didn't think about it again until I went to get a new toothbrush and saw my tampons in the cabinet. I shrugged it off, telling myself that I was just a little late, that it was too soon. I mean that was the first time I'd had sex in like seven months and we used protection.

"But it kept bugging me while I was at the club so on my way home, I bought like three pregnancy tests and they all came back positive so I bought three of a different brand and the results were the same. This was four days ago. I managed to get an appointment scheduled at my gynecologist yesterday and I had her test me because I mean how unlucky can I get? Apparently really un-fucking-lucky," she chuckles self-deprecatingly and Amanda sighs, rubbing a hand over her knee in a soothing manner.

"It's okay, Kris. He'll understand. He'll step up," she comforts but Kristen just shoves her hand away and moves her knees away from her chest.

"Don't you get it, Ames? I already told your asshat of a brother and do you know what he said to me?" Amanda shakes her head but I can see her tense up in anticipation. "He said that it was just a mistake that I knew how to take care of." Amanda sucks in a breath and I see the rage flash across her face as she recalls the same memory that came into my mind of a 43-year-old man that looks so similar to Aaron saying very similar words about her.

I grab her hand in mine, trying to comfort her in any way possible. She clutches onto it like a lifeline as we turn back to Kristen who hasn't finished her tale just yet. "I told him that I didn't want to get rid of it. I mean, I'm financially stable enough to care for a child and it isn't like I have a job like yours. Hell, I don't even have to go to the club to make money. So he said that if I kept it, it was my problem and he wasn't going to have any part in it so it would be better if I took care of it like I knew I should."