Mai's POV
It'd been exactly two months now. Two months since she and Katsu- Bakugou had broken up. He'd said he didn't know how he really felt about her, that their romance confused him even though they'd been best friends since day one. Two months since Bakugou broke Mai's heart. She spent her time alone thinking about him, her mind racing with the thoughts of where the hell she went wrong, what she could've done, and most of all what he would've said to her that morning a month ago when he'd caught her and Todoroki in bed.
She felt like a terrible person, really. She'd always found Shoto Todoroki attractive, how could you not?? And getting high out of her mind and hooking up with him seemed great at the time. Telling him she thought she had feelings for him too while the weed made her stomach flutter seemed great at the time. Waking up in bed next to him felt nice for about half a minute, the presence of a body next to her making her heart warm. The stark yells of her ex-boyfriend ripped her from her fantasy, though, his voice booming through her little dorm room.
The way he yelled terrified her, for he yelled with all of the passion of a broken heart. She could tell, she knew him well enough. Mai had no idea why he'd shown up at her door at eight o'clock in the morning, she had no clue why he was there and screaming. Her mind went blank as she curled up into a ball, tears streaming down her face as one of her closest friends, Yume, dragged Bakugou right out of the room.
She hadn't been too sure what happened after that, but after racing into the dorm common rooms to see a gruesome fight between Bakugou, Yume, and Todoroki she was brutally panicked. She didn't exactly have the time to be, though, as Bakugou released a deadly wave of explosions, sending the poor girl flying into the cabinets behind her, her spine cracking sickeningly.
When she woke up a few days later, she was surprised to see Shoto at her bedside. Sure, their night together was nice, but she didn't really know why he was so insistent on being there. Her eyes fluttered open as Shoto informed Present Mic, Mai's own father, of their night together. She'd been quick to shut him up, insisting to her father that nothing bad had happened in a half desperate attempt to save Shoto's skin. When the idea of being in a relationship with him struck her, she was so beyond confused. It'd only been about a month since the end of her first love... or the relationship anyways. Try as she might, Mai found it absolutely impossible to stop loving Katsuki Bakugou, despite his abrasive personality and shitty communication skills.
Mai had been surprised that they were kept in a hospital room together, her heart banging against her broken ribs at the thought of laying silently near him. So close together, yet miles away. There was a curtain between them, so she couldn't see his face, if he was okay, if he was hurt. She would never admit it but she was scared for him. She loved him after all. The first night after she'd woken up was the hardest night she'd ever lived through.
"Mai, are you awake?" Katsuki had asked softly, his voice still rough and quick as usual.
She didn't have it in her to respond, opting to just lay motionless in her bed and let him think that she was passed out.
"You're asleep then. Got it. I guess I can say whatever the hell I want then." he spoke to himself, completely unaware that she could hear him at all.
"I'm so fuckin sorry for this shit, Mai. I swear it was the last thing I wanted. I wanted to explain it to you sooner, but you wouldn't even look at me... I fucked up so bad messing with what we had. When I said I was confused about how I felt for you.... it was just because I loved you so much that it made my head spin. It made my mouth run dry and the tips of my fingers get all tingly. It was terrifying, even more so because it was you. You're... everything to me, and fuck, I'd never admit this to you if you were awake but I don't think a day has ever passed where I wasn't in love with you. I've never done this before, s'why I'm so fucked about it. But it was never your fault. I loved you- fuck, I still love you! It hurt so fucking bad to see you with him, with that fucking half-n-half bastard... I hate that I let you go, that I let you fall into his hands. I miss you every damn day. I'm so fucking in love with you. Fuck you for making me fall in love with you. Fuck me for being stupid enough to confess all this to an unconscious body. I'm sorry for everything, Mai. I love you." he murmured the last bit, fighting the way his voice tried to crack.
