AMAIA

DIEZ

Nakahiga kami sa kama ni Justin na nakahubot hubad. He was spooning me while he was sleeping.

Dahan dahan kong tinanggal ang kanyang braso at hita sa akin para makawala.

Usually ay agad siyang nagigising kapag tinatanggal ko ang kanyang yakap pero this time, he was so tired from our extreme activity last night and this morning.

I sat up slowly then watched him sleep.

Ang gwapo, macho at magaling pa sa kama. Halos nasa kanya na talaga ang lahat. Malambing din at maasikaso.

Napangiti ako at tumayo na.

Ang swerte ko talaga..

I went to the bathroom to do my morning routine. Well, afternoon na pala.

Pagkatapos kong magtoothbrush at maghilamos ay nagpunta na ako sa kusina para makapagluto.

It has been five weeks now since I last saw my family. Ni tawag ay hindi ko ginawa para makaiwas. But I kept sending them money naman para may panggastos sa bahay at hindi sila magtaka kung bakit ako MIA.

Mula nang magstay ako kay Justin, he took care of everything I needed.

Mula sa materyal na bagay hanggang sa attention at sex. I was pampered like a queen.

Hindi ko alam kung saan niya kinukuha ang pambili ng mga gamit ko dahil hindi naman na siya pumapasok sa trabaho niya magmula ng magkasama kami.

Nung tinanong ko siya, he said, he would rather stay at home and be with me kaysa magtrabaho siya at mabored.

Noong una, okay lang sakin. Of course palagi siyang nakasiksik sa akin kaya masaya ako. I wanted him with me too as much as possible.

We would usually fuck all day. Minsan, movie date at food trip. Para kaming bagong kasal.

Pero nang lumaon, kinakabahan na ako at nai stress. He was laid back and contented at whatever we have.

Oo nga't may kinakain pa kami.. pero hindi naman kasi ako sanay na walang pumapasok sa amin sa trabaho kaya pinilit ko siyang pumasok ulit.

I even ended up threatening him that I would go back to my family kung ipagpapatuloy niya ito. Tsaka I told him to stop giving me expensive things na hindi ko naman kailangan. Ni lumabas nga sa unit niya hindi ko ginagawa so para saan yung mga damit, sapatos at bags na binibigay niya sa akin right?

Masaya na ako sa simpleng bagay ngayon..

I was never like this before..

Pero siguro habang tumatanda ka, mas maiinitindihan mo ang buhay.

When you're younger, you want all the material things in this world.. but as years passes by.. you would find out that you only want someone to appreciate your existence and supports you. The one that would stay.

I told him that I only wanted food when he gets home.

He tried to reason out before about his work. Pero later on, ginawa din niya yung gusto ko.

He worked again. He stopped buying expensive things for me and started buying me burgers and drinks. Or pizza.. o kung anumang mabili niya.

Sa bawat pag uwi niya sa akin, I could see how excited and happy he was.

At masaya na rin ako sa buhay namin ngayon.. Para na kasi kaming mag asawa..

Kulang na lang ng anak at kasal..

Napailing ako sa tinatakbo ng isip ko.

Anak? Kasal?

Ni hindi nga niya alam ang totoo kong pangalan.