A day in the life of Mia

My counsins

Okay let's start off with the fact that when I'm with my cousins I'm less alone when I'm actually then when I'm with them. When they're around th try monopolize the conversations I keep telling myself that their not purposely ignoring me but that's how it feels sometimes.
Now I know you think what a drama queen🙄. But you see I, and as clinche as this sounds, feel misunderstood. I can't complain cause their family and it'd just be the same stuff as everyone else" no of course not" they'd scoff and say I was overreacting or something.
On multiple occasions my cousins have lied to get out of talking to me, excluded me from events and flat out ignored me. If I want to talk to them I either have to say their name several times or touch them and sometimes those don't even work.
Most of the time I find I'm just talking to myself. As I said last chapter I'm at the beach and we spent the whole week with them. And since they ignore me I was on my phone t he majority of the time. As I suspected no one even made a move to talk to me. My sister pointed out I was always on my phone and all I wanted to do was scream at them that I wouldn't be if they actually tried to talk to me, maybe if they didn't ignore me I wouldn't be on my phone all the time. Sorry for that little rant. Last year before the beach trip I was diagnosed with intamophiba I probably spelt that wrong, but basically it's the fear of bugs. And the bugs were bad at the pool that year. But seeings as I was trying to socialize I went to the pool with them. I tried not to let the bugs get to me but at one point a bug landed on me and I screamed cause I mean I'm terrified of them. I was 17 at the time and my parents had explained my phobia to them. They then went on to tell me I was being immature and childish. Like what no can shut your crusty dusty musty flat chested no breasted no man spary tanned big foot, lookin ass not hear, like I can't control my reaction so sit down and quit acting like your inside my head and know how I feel.
Haha anywho, yeah sufficed to say I don't like my cousins