Weak For Him || Darkness Book #1 ✔️

Chapter 38 | Blame

Stacey's Pov

A/N: Trigger Warning ⚠️ Read at own discretion.

Waking up in so much pain, I hold my stomach and scream out.
"Muuuuuum" I shout not knowing what's happening and she comes flying into my room. Pulling the covers back, I lay in a puddle of blood and cry looking at it horrified.
"I'm so sorry baby" she says and starts to cry for me.
"Nooo" I cry holding my stomach. This can't be happening!
"I'm sorry baby.. Let me call the doctors" she says but I stop her.
"No one knew apart from you and Victor. It doesn't matter" I say crying. Nothing matters right now. I need Liam right now bit it shoul pd be Victor that I reach out to.
"Do you want me to call Victor?" she asks and I nod my head staring at the blood still.
"Okay baby,  I'll be back" she says grabbing my phone and calling him.
I just sit here crying in so much pain and slowly start to get up and pull off my sheet wanting to just get rid of everything that remains bloody. I make my way to the bathroom and strip out my clothes and step into the shower. Switching it on, I let my tears fall again crying for the lost of something I never knew or met but loved instantly. I begin to fall to the floor and hold my stomach as I see the remaining of the blood fall from me. Watching as it just goes down the drain like everything else has, I cry holding my head under the hot water.
I don't know how long I've been sitting here, feeling numb when I hear my mums voice.
"Baby.. You've been in there for a while, are you okay?" I hear say through the door but I ignore her not being unable to find my voice.
"Stacey, I need to know your okay?" she bangs on the door now and I just nod my head.
"Yes mum, I'm fine" I call out turning off the shower feeling more numb than when I steppped in. I wrap my body in a towel and open the door to her standing there with Victor.
"Babygirl?" he says and I walk past them both. Seeing his face reminds me of the random bitch he wad with lastnight.
He actually came though.. surprisingly, after lastnight as well.. he still came. And he looks like shit.
They both walk into my room as I sit there on my bed staring at nothing, motionless.
"I'll leave you too it" my mum says and backs out my room.
"Thanks Lyndsay" I hear Victor say but I don't pay attention to what she whispers, I don't care for anything right now. He crouches down in front of me and looks up into my eyes.
"What happened babygirl?" he asks and I hit him again.
"You did this. You killed my baby. I hate you" I cry and he just let's me hit him this time and I start to cry more than ever.
"It's gonna be okay babygirl" he says holding me and I cry into his chest while rubbing soothing circles on my back. I slowly start to calm down and look at his tear streaked face. Why was he crying? He didn't even want the baby..
"I'm so sorry baby.. This is all my fault. I shouldn't of done what I did lastnight. Fuck, none of this would of happened if it wasn't for me" he says and I begin to cry again thinking of him with that random.. again.
"Get away from me" I scream at him and he retreats back and lands on his ass.
"You slept with someone else then come round here all 'I'm sorry' Noo.. No Victor. It's not fair, I told you I loved you and you do that. It's not fair on me" I cry and hold myself tightly feeling like I'm gonna fall apart. He looks at me hurt and stays sitting on the floor, running a hand through his hair then down his face harshly.
"Nothing happened with her, Stacey. It was a massive mistake telling her to come around. I was hurt, okay" he says and I look at his face, heart breaking. But he still did this. I refuse to take the blame.
"I'm sorry, I kept running to Liam. You hurt me badly.. I wanted to hurt you too" I tell him wiping my eyes and he gets up and sits next to me. Well, I wanted to make myself feel better in that moment and the only person that could was Liam.
"None of this is your fault babygirl. It's all me and I understand if you hate me forever and never want to see me again. I'll go now" he says looking at me and I shake my head.
"I don't hate you Victor" I tell him and he kisses me. I kiss him back and it feels like forever since I've felt his lips on mine.

***

Finally finishing crying, I pull myself together and get dressed in his t-shirt and a pair of shorts going to the bathroom.
"Are you okay, hunny?" my mum asks from her bedroom door.
"Yeah mum a little belly ache but I'm fine, thank you." I tell her with a small smile.
"You need to use a maxi for the rest. And never blame yourself. This wasn't anyone's fault, it's just one of those things that happens, okay. I love you baby" she tells me and I nod my head as I walk to her and she hugs me to her.
"I know mum, thank you. I love you too" I tell her and she smiles. I'd be lost without her actually.
After doing my business, I wash my hands and make my may back to Victor.
"How you feeling babygirl?" he asks me and I shrug. Like someone died inside me..
"Numb, I guess. I don't really know" I tell him and he nods like he understands.
"What can I do for you babygirl. I want to help" he says and I shrug not knowing. Well, I do know but he's not gonna like the answer. Soo..
"Cuddle with me, V" I tell him just standing there in the middle of my room. Lost.
"Come here" he says holding his arms out to me and I climb onto my bed and fall into them hugging him. Needing this comfort, I feel myself drift off to sleep again crying and him stroking up and down my back trying to soothe me but it's not working. I need him.