Weak For Him || Darkness Book #1 ✔️

Chapter 39 | Blame Pt2

Victor's Pov

Lying here in Stacey's bed while she's asleep in my arms, I feel like I don't deserve her. She lost our baby, and I don't know how to feel. I was set on her not having it, but now it's gone, I don't know how to feel. Do I have a right to feel sad. I feel the tears creep down my cheeks, and I wipe them away harshly, not wanting to cry, but the more I wipe, the more they fall. But, I need to be strong for my babygirl. She needs me and I will be here for her no matter what.
Looking up when I hear knocking on her bedroom door, then a head pops in.
"You both okay? it's quiet in here" Lyndsay asks then sees Stacey asleep.
"We're good, thanks for calling me" I tell her sincerely and she walks in sitting on the bed.
"I don't agree with what you did Victor, but I know my daughter loves you and you hurt her. I didn't think you'd be capable of that.. But this situation will either bring you closer together or further apart and I hope for her sake that you don't fuck up again. She's had enough heartache in her young life without you boys doing more. But, I do think you're great together but you need to communicate more and wear condoms. If you forget.. I understand with the heat of the moment but she needs to go on some sort of contraception if this is going to work. Do you want kids Victor?" she asks and I sigh then shrug. I actually don't know. Fuck!
"I didn't from yesterday but this is changing my mind. I feel like I've lost something.. yet, I don't know what and I want it back" I tell her honestly and she nods like she understands.
"I get it.. I felt the same before I had my Stacey, it happened to me and it devastated me for a while but I moved forward, just like Stacey will" she says and runs her hand over Stacey's back.
"Right, I'll leave you too it, you know where I am if you want to talk" she says and I nod, appreciating that. Does Stacey know her mum went through this too?
"Thank you, Lyndsay" I tell her and she offers me a small smile getting up and leaving the room.
Five minutes later, Stacey begins to move and I look down at her as she opens her eyes slowly. Baby blues look up at me and my heart speeds up but I can see the distant look in them.
"Hi beautiful, how you feeling?" I ask her with a small smile, stroking her hair from her face.
"A little better now, but you're still here" she says and I kiss her forehead, looking down at her then check my watch. It's only 10am she wasn't asleep long and she's suppose to have work.
"Are you going to work baby? I can call Anna and tell her you're sick" I tell her hoping she says yes because I don't want to leave her yet.
"Please, I can't bring myself to leave the house yet.. Are you going too?" she asks me and I shake my head.
"Not if you don't want me to. I'll stay as long as you want, beautiful" I smile at her and she nods looking much better than earlier.
"What did you need from me baby girl? Anything you want I'm here" I tell her and she smiles.
"There's chocolates downstairs.. And you, that's all I want" she says and I smile down at her.
"I love you" I tell her and she looks away and then back to me.
"I love you too" she tells me quietly and my heart beats faster. I'll never get enough of hearing her say that. Please keep saying it, babygirl. Don't give up on us.
"I'll be back" I tell her as she sits up letting me off the bed. I quickly jog down the stairs and I see Macey in the kitchen eating her breakfast.
"Hey, Stacey wants chocolate" I say to her and she points to the top cupboard.
"Up there, help yourself" she tells me and I do so. Grabbing a bunch of different ones with a box as well, I open the fridge and grab two bottles of water.
"Is she okay?" she asks looking up at me.
"Yeah she's better, just relaxing now" I tell her and she nods getting back to her food so I make my way back up the stairs to my babygirl.
"Chocolate for you" I announce in a silly voice lightening the mood, making her smile. That's the look I love to see.
"I want to take you away baby girl.. Just for a weekend, dont worry" I say pulling out my phone and ringing the bakery while she thinks about it.
"Goodies bakery" I hear and get straight to it.
"Hi, is that Anna?" I ask the lady on the other end.
"Yes.. Speaking?" she says and I look to Stacey.
"Hi, Anna. I'm ringing to tell you that Stacey won't be in today as she's sick, maybe the rest of the week too" I say hopeful she'll be somewhat reasonable without the questions.
"Oh my goodness. Of course, send her my regards." She says without hesitation and I smile.
"Will do. Thank you Anna, goodbye" I tell her and hang up.
"So a holiday?" she says sitting up stuffing her face with a snickers bar.
"Yes babygirl, a short break" I say sitting down next to her and she cuddles into me.
"Where? I'll go anywhere" she say making me smile.
"I was thinking Torquay.. To get back on track and rekindle our relationship beautiful. I booked it last night after you left, I knew I did wrong and wanted you back. I love you more than anything babygirl" I tell her honestly, and she blinks up at me slowly smiling.
"Really.. We're going to Torquay. Oh my god, yes! I love you too" she beams happily and kisses me. Laughing at her, I kiss her back, and she wraps her arms around me, hugging me to her.
"Thank you, Victor. I appreciate it" she tells me, and my heart bursts for her.
"You have no idea my feelings for you, babygirl, trust me" I tell her, thinking I love her more than life itself, and I don't know what I'd do without her. I fucked up and I need to make it right. And I will. No one will get between us.