Barely Holding On

Chapter 2

Blossom POV:

It has been 5 days since Nate left me on the night of my birthday crying. I haven't been able to get up from my bed or nor have I eaten for a few days. I haven't even gone in to work. I felt like shit. I hated this feeling of not being wanted. Worst part I didn't have anyone to tell about how much I was hurting. I had no motivation to do anything all I do was cry and sleep sometimes I would cry to sleep. I thought this pain in my chest was gonna slowly disappear but it hurt even more. I hated this mate bond bull shit. I hate that I felt this sharp pain in my chest and gut every time he was having sex with Leyla. The pain was so bad that it felt like death was the better option. My wolf haven't said anything since that night I think she is probably the only one who knows the exact pain I was feeling. 

When I feel extremely like shit and don't wanna deal with my problems its always easiest to take a nap and forget them. I cover myself with my blanket and curled up like a rolly polly and took a nap.

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My blanket was pulled off causing me to wake up from my nap. The light from my window  blinds me as I squint  my eyes to see who the hell pulled off my blanket and opened up my curtains. The large figure came closer to me as my eyes begin to adjust to the light and let out a sigh.

"Jay close my curtains and give me my  damn blanket?" I glare at Jay.

"Oh god! I thought you died! You have NOT BEEN ANSWERING MY DAMN PHONE CALLS FOR 5 FUCKING DAYS BLOSSOM CREED!" he begin talking softly and then he started to raise his voice at me.

"Well now I am alive so give me my  blanket back." Not having the energy to deal with him I just grab my pillow and cover my eyes.

"Do you know your fucking job just called me saying that since you haven't been coming in for your last 4 shift. They had decided to let you go!"

I sit up looking at him with no energy with my messy hair and my red puffy eyes. I don't know what went over me but for the first time ever in my life I lost control of my emotions  "Not even my work want me! No one wants me! Mom and Dad doesn't even want me. No one wants me I don't even have friends! You probably even don't want me as a sister! He doesn't even want me because I'm not her! I am so alone!  So why should I care if I am alive!" While yelling at him I begin sobbing.

"What's wrong with me why am I not wanted? Am I that worthless?" I ask looking up at him with tears falling down on my cheeks. I was crying so hard I couldn't even see him he was just a blurry figure at this point

I feel him sit next to me and he turn my head to him as he wipe my tears and hug me from the side patting my head. "I am such a horrible brother! Here I thought I was protecting you, but I couldn't even protect you from feeling like that." I cried even harder as he continues to talk. "You had never expressed how you feel and I was oblivious about how you were feeling this whole time. You aren't worthless, you are my baby  sister who always takes care of me. Mom and dad is just a hard ass but they very much love you. I love my little Bloss. Whoever didn't want you will never know your worth and they don't deserve you." I sat there just sobbing for what seems like hours in his chest and before I knew it I fell asleep.

As I woke up I noticed I wasn't in my room. I begin scanning around confused to  where I was. There was a few luggage and a small vanity with a door to the balcony. I get up opening the door out to the long familiar hallway. Why the heck was I at the pack house? Heading downstairs panicking as how I got here I saw no one in sight. I heard noises coming from the kitchen so I head there and I saw a beautiful woman with long straight blond hair. She wasn't facing towards me as she looked busy cooking. She was wearing a off the shoulder long pink maxi dress. She turns around and my heart sunk as i realizes it was Leyla.