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Dad. Part1.

30.04.2019

okay good. so like two night at like 11pm i called my dad a little bitch because he kept complaing. he then tackled me to the floor to take my phone off me. when ended up having a massive fight where he shouted in my face. kept putting me in like head locks and dragging me by my arms and legs. then i tried to run out the house but he grabbed my arm and pulled me back in. i tried to grab the house phone to call my mum but he tackled me again and turned the electricity off and locked all the doors. i lit two candles so i could see. he burnt me with them as he tried to put them out. he then went up stairs and i opened the kitchen window and climbed out. i ran off to the shop and hid in the car park. i swear he saw me but he didn't. because i thought he did i ran off away all the way to the next village. i stopped and sat down after like 30 minutes and started to cry more. an ambulance car that was on patrol saw me and picked me up and drove me home. i then went straight to bed. then yesterday i tried to grab the house phone again to call my mum and all hell broke loose. he tried to break my arms and legs to stop me. i was scream and screaming. i ran outside after he grabbed my hair and threw me to the floor. i ran to the car park and he chased me. he then started to forcefully push me back towards the house. i smacked my head on a brick wall he still kept pushing me. then i tried to spin out of his grip and he put me in a head lock. choaked me and got me into the house i slipped out of his reach and he dragged me by my leg closer in to shut the door and then i threw the dog and cat food everywhere accidently smashing the food bowl and then he shouted at me again. i sat at the top floor window trying to find a way to jump out of it because he was scaring me so much. the dragged me back into the house again. i went back to the window crying threw my quilt down so it didn't hurt to jump. he grabbed my guitars and threatened to smash them and then the police showed up the house. calmed me down talked to me and dad. hey thought he had abducted me. he blamed it on my adhd i called him out for bullshit. police calmed me down again and then talked about the whole situation again. they then spoke to dad more. some one said they heard sexual noises last night but they didn't. the police made my dad let me call my mum. she went mental because when i ran to the next village it was midnight and my dad didn't come and look for me he just went home. it's okay i geuss. doesn't matter police said that there has to be boundaries in place so. they saw my hands and asked if i self harmed and if at the window i wanted to die. i said no ofc not. my hands are scratched from the kittens although no one believes me. i said if i was to ever self harm i wouldn't do it where any one would see i'm not that stupid. it's okay you don't have to