The chaos always emerges the second I'm away from you. See with you I can be bored, It can be quiet, and I'll still feel safe. I'll still feel loved, a bit more like me. Even if I don't know who that me is.
But in that second, the second I leave your side, that's when it starts. That's when the loneliness kicks in, the happiness Drains, and the exhaustion overwhelms me.
You take away my pain when I'm with you.
You give me the small amount of humanity and happiness I have left in me. Without you, I am a lost soul, a scattered mind, a meaningless person.
But you, you change that in me. Even if only temporarily, even if it's only when I'm with you, or talking to you, you distract me from the confusion in my mind, and the murderer in my brain.
Without you I feel I wouldn't be here, I don't just feel, I know. I may not know much things about myself but I know without you, my soul wouldn't be complete.
I feel as though I cannot be whole without you, maybe that is why my heart aches away from you. Why I miss you so when we're apart.
You are, and always will be, the person who picks up my chaos little by little and stores it away with I'm with you.
I love you,
Sincerely yours,
A broken soul
