Immortal Sins :Rise Against the Angels (On Hold)

Immortal Sins- Chapter 1 Regrets

Chapter 1-  Regrets

They said it was a miracle  that I survived . Apparently I had so much smoke in my lungs that I shouldn’t have lived. How I got out was a mystery according to the police and firemen  when they burst through the front door I was on the main floor passed out on the ground that my bedroom door was completely gutted and ripped off the hinges. I don’t remember making it out of my room but then again I don’t remember a whole lot about that night.

They told me mom and dad had died from smoke inhalation, Xavier who was my older brother burned alive.  The doctors didn’t want to tell me but when they were outside speaking to the police officers I overheard them. As if talking about me right outside my door was a bright idea. They think he was experimenting with drugs and was so high he didn’t realize his room had caught fire. When he did realize and tried to stop it the fire was already spread too far.

The last thing I try so hard not to think about was Summer. I had to stop my eyes from watering because she was so close to her second birthday it would have been next week. Her screams and cries and I couldn’t do a thing about it, it killed me. I wish she would have lived instead of me because I was 17 I lead a long enough life but Summer. Her big blue eyes and wonderful dark blonde hair that would curl to the left when she fell asleep , she would laugh and giggle at anything especially when I would make sock puppets. She called me “Fiffy” because she couldn’t say “Faith” .

My eyes started to burn all over again, I’ve been in here to my knowledge over a week and had missed the funeral. I wasn’t upset that I had missed it I think it was for the better.  I wouldn’t have been able to keep myself together if I had to go there and see strangers who weren’t close to my family sit there weeping telling me what a terrible loss it was and how they were so close to my family. I’ve felt my strongest today I’ve been able to walk around even though my entire body felt lifeless. I had no desire to continue living but I guess if I’m alive I have to trust I’m here for a reason. My family was brought up catholic so there better be a God and he better have a damn good reason for taking my family away from me.

I pulled down the sheets to the small hospital bed and forced myself to sit up and look around. I hated hospitals, I hated everything about them from the smell that was cold and overly clean to the depressing sick feeling I had sitting in here. The doctor walked in being accompanied by a nurse and another unfamiliar female figure.

“Ahh Ms. Hortevenko , you look well enough to be signed out. Allow me to do final examination before you’re discharged then we’ll book you a follow up appointment.” The softest voice came out of the 6 foot tall doctor. He checked the minor burns on my skin , my heart rate and respiration and not long after the estranged woman came to sit beside me on the bed.

“Are you a case worker?” I asked looking at her oddly as she smiled sympathetically towards me.

“No sweetheart, I’m your mom’s sister.”  The woman  was short and had blond curly hair with freckles. She looked nothing like my mother.

“My mom doesn’t have a sister.” I stated flatly looking at her cautiously. I did not like where this was going, if my mother had a sister she would have told us I’m sure of that.

She then pulled out a small picture from her wallet that looked like it was taken in the 1980’s. It was definitely my mother with her long full wavy brown hair and blue eyes, and beside her was this woman who was quite a bit younger in the picture with her blond curls and wide grin as they stood in front of a movie theater.

“We stopped  talking years ago when I ran away from home.”

I didn’t know what to say this wasn’t what I had expected in the least but then again I hadn’t expected any of this. My world completely shattered overnight. I gave a shrug. “Fine, whatever.”