Far From You

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"She isn't coming back ?"

I asked my dad he just looked at me tears falling down from his eyes.

"No son your mother is in a better place"

What's he mean a better place?
It can't be hell- please not hell.

"Heaven?"

She was an amazing person. All the things she did was good. Maybe some moments when i was acting bad is when she would do bad things.
But it was all good. She lived up to her dreams.

"Yes heaven.."

He nods his head as he walks away from me.

I jump awake. Laying in my own sweat. Gross.

"Another dwream about mom Zachy?"

I look over and see my little sister staring over at me with a worried look on her face.

"I'm fine , get back to bed. I didn't mean to wake you"

"Gn zachy i love u"

She said laying back in her bed rolling over.

"I- yeah sweet dreams"

Well this is the beginning. I don't know what i got myself into but there's no going back. Maybe it's just how it's supposed to be or something.
It could be just one silly dream for all we may know.

Is it true that everything happens for a reason?
There's always a reason for every explanation, so there's got to be a chance that there's a reason why everything happens the way that it does. Even if it's good or bad. You always come out being the stronger person.

Maybe he was right. Maybe i love less instead of loving more. It's how it should be , correct?
Loving more instead of less.
I'm not the bad guy here , what if i am?

I hear my phone go off and i quickly look over to the notification.

— daniel "you up?"

I grab my phone off of the end table (whatever you call it 😐)

— Zach "yeah"

— Daniel " I'm outside at the street light"

— Zach "do you want me to come there?"

— Daniel "yeah"

I get up out of bed grabbing my phone and my cigarettes.

"Where you going zachy?"

"Going for a walk"

I said walking over to her giving her a kiss on the forehead.

I remember staying up late and wondering if i was in love with you , like you are with me. When that happened i had to remind myself that you were going to leave me eventually and nothing lasts forever. Well good things don't last forever. They never do. I choose not loving you because it hurts to love, just like it hurts to live.

"You look like shit Zach"

Daniel said to me as i walked over to him leaning against the light pole lighting up my cigarette.

"Thanks..."

How can you blame me for not believing in love?
I don't wanna spend every second thinking about how you could leave me or how jealous i would get if someone looks at you how i look at you.

"Why don't you say it?"

Daniel asked and i looked up at him letting out the smoke that was in my mouth.

"Say what?"

I asked even though i know what it is.

"That you love me back.."

"I can't , it hurts to much.."

Daniel just kept staring at me. Maybe he wanted to say something but was just to scared to do it. Daniel grabbed the cigarette out of my hand and threw it on the ground.

"Why would you do that?"

"Because you can show me you love me another way"

He lips crushed against mine. I couldn't take it anymore. He showed dominance and i didn't like it. How dare he do that.
I swiped my tongue across his lips he let me in.
If this is what showing love another way , i don't know what is.

He removed his lips from mine.

"We're not having sex at the light pole"

I said laughing opening up my box of cigarettes lighting up another one.

"Then we can go to my house.."

Daniel said licking his lips.

"Let's go to your house then"

I said and starting walking behind him.

"You know love is overrated, it always leaves you feeling empty in the end.."

"You don't think it's worth it?"

"No.. not if it destroys you who you are"

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