Scarlett Johansson/Natasha Romanoff one shots

Smoking

Y/N gets caught smoking

Warning: Smoking, a little bit of a lot of cussing, uh sad?

Y/N's point of view
You were outside on the balcony of your room. You were staring down at the street. Cars passing by. Bright lights still on even though it was almost midnight. You stood there looking over the city with a pack of cigarettes and a lighter in your hand. Like you always did for the past 5 months. You know it was bad but it was so addictive. No one knew you smoked. Not even your girlfriend.  You always made sure to get the smell off of you before going inside.

You took the last cigarette in your pack and put it between your lips. Putting one hand over the lighter so the cold air won't take the flame out. You lit the cigarette and took it out as you blew the smoke away. You stayed there for a while until you heard the sliding door open and a familiar voice.

"Y/N?" Your girlfriend said in a quiet voice. You realized you forgot to lock the door.

"Fuck" you mumbled under your breath tilting your head down.

"Y/N, are you- are you smoking?" Nat asked walking towards.

You took the cigarette out of your lips and put it between your pointer and middle finger as you turned around facing Nat.

"Y/N what the hell" she said taking the cigarette from your finger and stepping on it.

"Damn it, that was my last one" you said staring at the cigarette that was lit on the ground.

"Tell me why the hell are you smoking" Nat said crossing her arms together. She was pissed that you were smoking and why you didn't tell her.

"It calms me down I guess" you shrugged.

"How long?" she asked you.

"Huh?" You looked at her with a confused face.

"How long have you been smoking?" She said getting more mad.

"About 5 months" you said trying to look anywhere but her.

"I'm going to go inside.I'm gonna go to sleep. You can do whatever you want for now but tommorow when I wake up we are talking about this" she said pointing her finger towards your chest.

"Can't we just talk about this now?" You asked her.

"What am I supposed to say? You've been fucking smoking for 5 months and I never even knew. I'm a fucking spy for fucks sake! How did I not even notice it!" she basically yelled at you but not too loud. You chuckled and shook your head before turning away from her then turning back to her.

"Oh my bad, how was I gonna tell you? Oh yeah I've been so fucking stressed lately and this is the only damn thing that could help me?" You said sarcastically.

"Yes! You could've said that! Or something! Even a note could have worked!" She yelled at you. You could barely hear the cars on the road below you two.

"Yeah, it's my fault. You think I haven't tried that!" You said now becoming angry.

"I have tried! So many times! But I couldn't, why? because I would get these fucking stupid scenarios in my mind that you would leave me because of these damn cigarettes that I can't get rid of!" You yelled at her on the brink of breaking down.

She was now silent. You never yelled at her. In fact you both never yelled at each other. This was your first argument. Maybe your first of many.
She couldn't say anything the only thing she could do was hold you while you cried. She was confused of why you broke down like someone has died or was on the verge of death. Maybe someone was dying and she didn't know who. But that wasn't it.

"Love, what is wrong? You know you can tell me anything, right?" she said, softly caressing your head.

"She didn't come back to see me. She came for money" you said wiping your tears but it was no use, your tears kept falling.

"Baby I don't know who we're talking about" Nat whispered in your ear.

"My mom. She only came back for money, not for me. It's worse than the first time she left" you managed to get out before completely breaking down.

"Oh, I'm so sorry" she said. That's the only thing she could say. She knew that you loved your mother even when she left you. You always found an excuse to why she left you. Maybe she was too young. Maybe her parents didn't want her to have a child yet. Maybe she was too scared. Maybe she didn't have the money to take care of you. Maybe she didn't have anything or anyone to help. Or maybe because she just didn't want you.

Time skip hoes

"So you only started smoking after she left again?" Your girlfriend said holding you close to her. You guys were now inside, laying in your bed. You nodded not wanting to remember it or else you would be crying again and Nat had just stopped you crying five minutes ago.

"Can you not tell the team?" You asked Nat looking at her laying your head on  her arm.

"About your mom or the smoking?" She asked you.

"Both" you said placing your head back on her chest, listening to her calm heartbeat.

"Of course love" she said kissing the top of your head. She pulled the blanket over you both.

"Thank you" you whispered closing your eyes.

"You don't need to thank me dear" she said holding your hand.

"I love you" you whispered towards her before falling asleep.

"I love you more" She said moving her position so she could lay across from you. She moved a piece of hair from your face and kissing your forehead. She stayed like that for a while. Admiring your features while you slept before eventually falling asleep herself cuddling into you.