Love and Trigger (Macimilian Series #3)

Chapter 19 Truth

Chapter 19

Truth

Everything came so fast. It's like time doesn't allow me to process what's happening. I stood there frozen as the doctor utter the time of death of my Dad. Cardiac arrest. Everyone was rushing around me, but I stood there, mind empty.

Hindi ko alam kung totoo ba ang lahat ng nangyayari ngayon. Bumalik lang ang lahat nang may maramdaman akong humawak sa akin. I looked up only to see Giovan, and instantly, my anger burned. My heart beats wildly for unadulterated hate.

"Go away!" I removed his hands from mine and catch my breath.

Hindi siya nagpakita ng gulat, like he's expecting it. His eyes are soft and examining me. My anger is dripping like waterfalls.

"Astrid..." He steps forward.

Humakbang ako palayo at ipinakita ang galit sa kaniya. I don't understand anything right now. Kung ano ang nakita ko kanina, kung ano ang narinig ko, but I can't ask him right now. This is too much for me.

May lumapit sa amin na mga pulis, probably for investigating the case. I turn my gaze at them.

"We need to investigate things, Ma'am."

I looked straight at them before turning my eyes at the girl near us.

"She's the one you need to investigate," I said clearly. "Make sure to know every detail."

Nakita ko kung paano muling tumulo ang luha noong babae. I didn't care. The police ask her to come with them. Pangalan lang ni Giovan ang naririnig ko sa bibig niya. Giovanni went to her as I watch them turn away.

My nose heated, and my heart trembles. Giovan stopped and looked at me same time my tear fell. He was about to go to me, but I glared at him and walked away. I wiped my stupid tears as I sat in the room where my Dad was, lifeless.

SI Kuya Walter ang madaming tinatawagan. Si Manang ay kausap ang doctor at natataranta. While I was staring at nothing, taking time to process what's happening.

Umiyak lang ako ng umiyak nang dumating si Cali. She was crying too. She didn't say anything or ask anything. She just stayed there beside me, letting me cry.

"W-What would I do, Cali?" my voice cracked.

She wiped her own tears and looked at me, making herself look strong.

"Dadating iyong Tito Simon mo mamayang gabi. They just booked their flight from Canada..." she looked at me firmly, "Magpahinga ka muna. Sila Kuya Walter na ang bahala."

Nagtaxi lang kami ni Cali papuntang bahay dahil inaasikaso ni Kuya Walter iyong sa ospital. Iniwan din naman ako ni Cali at hinayaang mapagisa. As I stare at our big house, I can't help but to wish this was all just a dream. A painful dream.

Hindi ko 'to kakayanin.

I went to my Dad's room. I never went here after my Mom died. Dati, madalas ako dito dahil dito kami nag s'stay ni Mommy. After she went away, I spent time distancing myself from my father.

He wasn't a good father. But that doesn't mean this is fine. I don't want him dead. He's my Dad. My family. Kahit ilang sakit pa ang idulot niya sa akin, I love him still, and I won't wish for any of this to happen.

But why? Why did both of them leave me here?

I opened my Mom's vanity. Na hanggang ngayon ay nandoon pa din. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pinanatili ni Dad iyon doon. I saw her things and what caught my eye is her notebook. Madalas kong nakikita ito noon, but I never got curious about it.