Saving You

1. What is Happiness?

Kouichi Reiji's POV

As long as I can remember, my mom and I have moved from neighborhood to neighborhood. Town to town, city to city. Never staying long enough for me to make any friends so I stopped trying. In the end I became cold to everyone including my own mother. She was worried about my sudden behavior and since she's learning to be a type of doctor, she tried to figure out what was wrong. She eventually took me to a doctor and there I was diagnosed with the severest depression. No one knew how it began or why. To my mom it happened in a split second. After that I lashed out more and at one point I started screaming at night. Mom was worried when I kept screaming there was a faceless man standing at the foot of the bed.

 I walk into my now old school since it's my last day. I don't pay attention to anything or anyone as usual and when school ends I just walk home. 

"Hey sweetie, how was school? Did you say goodbye to your friends?" She asks

"I don't have friends." I growl

She falls silent and goes out to the car. I follow behind her. I get in and put my earbuds in. She begins to drive away from the shit hole we had to call home. I begin to fall asleep. It's the same, I'm just sitting in the dark. 

"ie.....swe.....etie.......SWEETIE!" Mom shakes me

"Hmm, what? Huh?" I ask waking up

"We're here" she says smiling

"Oh" I get out 

The place looks like hell but it's nothing we're not used to. I walk in and see an upstairs. I look at mom confused.

"Your room and bathroom are up there." She smiles

"M-my room?" I ask

"Yea, go check it out." She says

I walk upstairs shakily and look at the bathroom and my bedroom. They're decent sizes. I walk downstairs.

"How'd you get this place?" I ask

"Hon, you've seen the neighborhood. It's not so great. It's cheap rent now bring in your boxes." She says

"Whatever," I leave and carry in my boxes

"Go to bed, k?" She says

"Whatever" I reply

"Don't forget to..."

"MOM!!! ENOUGH!!!" I lash out

"Ok" she says

I go upstairs and lay down on my floor. I don't want the bed. I let sleep consume me and I don't wake up until late evening. I see a letter from the new school.

"I promise you this is the last move. You'll graduate Highschool and finally be able to make friends. " she says 

"Ok" I walk upstairs and listen to my music

I end up staying up all night instead of falling asleep. When morning arrives mom comes in and looks at me. 

"No sleep?" She asks

I glare at her and she sighs. 

"I'll take that as a no." She sits down on the bed, "Why didn't you sleep on the bed?"

"I didn't want to." I say coldly

"We're going to your new school today." She says

"K, whatever." I say

"Kouichi? Please be good and make some friends." She says

"Mom, stop telling me to be happy. What is happiness to begin with? I don't know what happiness is. So stop telling me to make friends when we're just going to move in a couple of months." I say getting up

She looks down and I go take a walk. I begin to think about stuff like if dad never... never mind. It's best if I don't make any friends and stay cold to everyone. I will never open up my heart to anyone ever. Because I don't know what happiness is and what it can do. I don't want to be hurt like mom was. The only question I have is:

What is Happiness?

Hello lovelies. Thanks for reading my first novel. I don't expect people to like it but please don't give me hate. If I have spelling errors please tell me. Hope you all loved this first chapter. It was fun to write!