Bride Set off ✔

chapter 3

"I don't think I'll make it here." He said.

"Make it as in?"

"I feel stuck, Rashi. I think that I give my all for everything and in return I get nothing but regret of... I don't know of something. I feel lost. Yes, lost."

"Since when you feel like this?"

"After you and Rajan left, shweta was busy with her life. I was alone here. You guys call and check up once a while, I feel overwhelmed but I want that overwhelmed feeling forever. I miss you all. I couldn't focuse on studies, work or anything." He sighed.

"It's okay. It'll be okay. Please talk more often about how you feel. We are here to help you." I wish I could hug him through screen and tell him it'll be okay.

"I'm sorry for busting out all at once, rashi. I failed my CA Exams and my faculty thinks I'm no good, they told me to quit for a while and change subjects."

"They did what..."

"They told me to take accountant job and move on in life, leave CA exams behind."

"Do you want to?"

"I need few weeks break but I don't want to leave my studies. I want to figure out where I'm wrong and improve. That's all but after weeks break."

"Ummm.. Okay.. "
I felt clueless about what to say. I want him to tell that go on trip and refresh but also, I don't want him to go alone.

"Why don't you take a trip with Rajan. He's coming there and you both can spend a time while figuring thing out."

"He's in Delhi for work and I'm at Bangalore. I talked to him. He's just here for five days. I don't want to bother him, please!"

"Bother? Seriously? We are family. We don't leave anyone behind and I am sorry for not seeing you suffer. I thought you were busy pushing yourself studying but I was wrong. I should have called you and talk everyday for hours. I am sorry."

"It's not your fault. I just don't have life much here. Please don't worry, I'll figure something out."

"You're not alone, Jay."

"I know. I just have to go buy some books before stores closes."

"But.. "

"Bye Rashi.."
He ended call.

Before store closes? It's morning over there. Who is he kidding? I called him again and again but he didn't received.
I send a text to Rajan.
Call me once you reach. It's important!!!

What must have happen to Jay? I feel guilty for not calling him everyday as promised. Time zone sucks, every time I call he is asleep and while he calls, I'm asleep.

I need to get out of this party. I have to go home and think at peace. I signalled Piku to leave but she smiled and waved. She got signal wrong. I texted her to leave but she didn't checked her phone.
I walked to her and told to leave. She didn't agree but I said I'm feeling sick and she knew I'm lying.

"Please,piku!"

"Fine." She agreed and I rushed to door.

"Let's change from this outfit and leave." She said and I noticed I'm in Bryce character. I completely forgot for few minutes.

I dropped her home and drive to library to think peacefully. For past few months I spent sometime alone in library. Even Rajan doesn't know that. I just want some me time for myself when no one knows where am I.

I sit at corner reading book from aisle four and forget about world for few minutes. It makes me happy for a while but mostly gives me strength to face further problems.

I have changed country but problems still chase me.

When I was new here I had hard time making friends and first semester I used to be alone but I was okay with it until I found friends. I like my friends but I haven't told them anything about my past. I told them I find fascinating studying here, so I came. They seem to believe me but they don't trust me too. I am only close to Piku, rest of friends hang out away and don't care to inform. It's pity friendship, I don't want it but I don't know how else I'll blend in.