Weak For Him || Darkness Book #1 ✔️

Chapter 92 | Disappointment

Stacey's Pov

One week later

"I need to see my mama baby, she's not doing so good" Liam says and I start to panic. If he leaves he'll probably get caught and I'll lose him. But he needs to see his mama, I can't be selfish.
"I wanna tell you no, but I know you have to go" I tell him and he smiles at me for clearly not making this into an argument.
"Thank you baby, I know it's a risk, but I have no choice" he tells me and I give him a small smile.
"I know baby, I'm scared you'll go away again" I tell him honestly and he pulls me in closer.
"I'm scared too baby, I won't lie, but it has to be done. I'll never forgive myself if something happened to her" he tells me and I nod understanding. Obviously.
"I get that just please be careful and if you feel anything.. run" I tell him and he chuckles.
"I will be careful because you're coming with me, right? And what's the point of running when I'm just gonna hand myself in?" he says and I sigh heavily.
"I can't bare the thought of you going back to that place, what will happen because you escaped? Will we have to wait longer to be together?" I ask him knowing he's about to tell me yes.
"Probably, but it's okay because I'll have you when I'm out and I'll be a free man to do as we please" he says with a sad smile. I know he doesn't want to go back. Who would..
"I'll always wait for you, no matter how long it takes Liam. I love you too much" I tell him holding him tightly to me.
"I'll hold you to that baby, I love you too. Just promise me you'll live your life for the both of us" he asks and I nod knowing that I'll just cry and slip into a depressing state no doubt.
"I will baby.. I'll try" I tell him sadly.
"That's all I ask beautiful, I can't bare the thought of you wasting your life" he says and I shake my head. I want to wait for him no matter how long it takes.
"It's not wasting if I'm waiting" I tell him with a smile and he chuckles.
"Okay, I can live with that, now we need to get ready to leave. I'm a little excited to be going back out into the world. It's been so long" he says giddy getting up and pulling me with him. He's a lot better now and his bruises have near enough gone finally, he looks like his sexy self again.
"The worlds your oyster baby" I tell him and he smiles.
"I only need you beautiful, and maybe ganja too" he jokes and I laugh knowing he's telling the truth.
"Absolutely" I tell him running up the stairs as he slaps my ass.

***

After showering and getting ready, I stand in the mirror now finished and applying lip balm to my lips.
"You're making me wanna stay here with you baby, you look so damn sexy" he tells me coming up behind me as I look at him through the mirror smiling. He's perfect. Never fails to make me smile.
"Thanks baby, you look handsome too, you know I love you in black" I tell him and he smiles at me.
"I know you do beautiful" he says and winks at me making me chuckle. He's happy.. oddly.
"You ready to leave?" he asks and I grab my handbag and nod.
"Yeah, let's go" I tell him as we walk out the bedroom and down the stairs. Liam opens the door for me and locks up walking me to the car and does the same again climbing in behind me.
"Im looking forward to seeing my mum and Jason, I hope he's there" he says and I smile.
"I hope he is for you too baby" I tell him honestly. I don't personally care, but Liam hasn't seen him in so long and I know he misses his brother. He nods at the driver who pulls off and he pulls me closer to him.
"I love you baby, always hold that in your heart, if anything happens I need you to know that" he says and I start to feel emotional. I know something is gonna happen today. I can feel it.
"I love you too baby make sure you remember that no matter what happens I'll always be here for you waiting and wanting just you because I love you always" I tell him and kiss him affectionately.
"Thank you baby, I'll remember that, I promise. I'll be okay this time" he says and I nod with a sad smile. I don't want him to go anywhere let alone prison.

***

Pulling up at the back of his mums house, I climb out and scan the area looking for something.. anything, but see nothing out of the ordinary so I wave him over and he climbs out and runs into his mums back door. Thank god it's open.
"Brother, thank god. Mums not doing so good" Jason tells him and he sighs walking over to him and hugging him tight.
"When did it happen?" Liam asks him and he sighs.
"When you was in hospital she took a turn and now I'm scared that she won't get better" Jason says sounding emotional. Shit
"She's strong and she's gonna survive this Jason" Liam tells him but when we walk into the livingroom she looks completely different from the last time I seen her never mind Liam. Oh my God.
"Mum, I'm here" Liam says to her crounching down in front of her.
"Baby, thank god you're okay, I thought I'd lost you" she says to him near tears and he hugs her giving her a kiss on the cheek.
"I'm so sorry mum for turning out to be such a disappointment, I love you so much" he tells her and I feel myself get emotional at his words. He's not a disappointment!
"Baby no, you're not. Don't say that ever, I love you son, you're my baby and I'm so lucky to have you. I'm so proud of you" she tells him and I see Liam starting to break down.
"I am mum, I'm going back to prison, I just know it" he says and I feel a tear slide down my face. Wiping it away quickly, I look to Jason and see him watching them and leaves them to it.
"Son you are my greatest achievement and you mean the world to me baby, don't cry" she tells him and he starts to cry more putting his head on her lap. She gently soothes him stroking his hair and looks to me.
"I need you to look after him Stacey. Promise me you'll do that please" she says to me and I nod my head, beginning to cry.
"I promise you Angela" I tell her and she smiles at me.
"Don't let her go baby, she's special. I promise you that" she tells him and he nods with his head still down.
"Liam, brother. The police are here, like there outside now front and back.. what do you want to do?" Jason says rushing into the room. I inatantly break down and Liam stands up sharply wiping his face. Shit!
"It's cool bro, I'll go out to them" he tells Jason and I shake my head at him. Remembering the last time they took him.
"I love you mama, and I'll see you soon" he tells his mum, kissing her while she cries.
"I love you son, be good please" she tells him and he nods and looks to me.
"Baby, don't cr,y, I'm sorry this is happening. I had to come though, I love you Stacey Johnson" he tells me coming closer and wrapping his arms around me tightly.
"I love you baby, this isn't your fault and I need you to ring me as soon as you can, okay?" I tell him and he nods feeling his tears drop onto my shoulder.
"It is my fault baby, but it's okay, I'll be out a free man remember that and I will marry you remember your promise to live your life. Baby, please stay in here while I go outside, I don't want you seeing it again" he tells me and I cry harder squeezing him to me.
"I promise you I'll wait, I love you soo much Liam" I tell him making sure he knows.
He let's go of me and kisses me passionately like it's the last time. No!
He rubs my ring and let's go of me and walks towards Jason.
"I love you bro, look after mum please she needs you, I'm sorry to leave you to handle this on your own" he tells Jason who's emotional too and they hug. Pulling away he rushes back to me and holds me tightly.
"Fuck! I don't wanna leave you baby" he says making me cry more.
"I don't want you to leave me" I tell him through my tears but I can't hold onto him.
"I hope and pray to see you again beautiful, I love you more than life itself, be happy" he tells me holding my face looking into my teary eyes and I can see how scared he is. He hands me his keys and phone and kisses me again. What if he doesn't make it back to me this time?
"You'll see me soon baby, write to me and send me a VO and I'll see you when ever you want me to, I need to see you, I love you more than breathing" I tell him and hear banging on the door. Nooo!
"Good bye baby" he tells me and I just cry watching him walk towards the door. He opens the door and steps out looking back at me. They take him to the floor again and handcuff him quickly ragging him around like her a fucking doll. My baby.
"Nooo, stop" I scream and run towards him but Jason grabs me.
"Stop, he has to do this Stacey" he tells me and I fight to get out of his hold.
"Liam.. baby.. noo!" I shout, crying and drop to the floor pulling Jason down with me.
I watch as they drag him away out of my eyesight and the door slam shut. He's actually gone. What am I gonna do?

***

Its been about an hour since they took Liam away and I'm still sat on the kitchen floor crying while Jason holds me, rocking me. He keeps telling me that everything's going to be okay, but I don't see how. How is any of this going to be okay?
"Bring Stacey in here to me son" I hear Angela say but I can't feel my body so I just sit there. Jason stands and picks me up bridal and walks over to her sitting me on the sofa next to there mum. She pulls me in and holds me as I begin to cry more.
"Sweetheart, there there, I've got you, let it out" she rocks me as my tears just flow uncontrollably, my body wracks as I cry hard on her wishing we never came here.
I should of just told him no. Why did I agree to this. This wouldn't be happening if I just said fucking no!
"This is all my fault, if he didn't of come here he wouldn't of gotten caught and you wouldn't be in this mess sweetheart. I'm so sorry, so so sorry" she tells me and I just cry. Crying is my best friend right now...
I don't reply not being able to find my voice. What do I even say to her, she can't help that she's sick.
"Will you stay here tonight at least, you can stay in Liam's room hun, I need to know you're gonna be okay" she says and I nod my head just wanting to curl up and cry.
"Would you like Jason to take you up now?" she asks and I nod again tears still falling.
Jason sad smiles at me and picks me up bridal again. I wrap my arms around his neck resting my head on his chest and he looks at me sadly.
"Im sorry Stacey, you don't deserve any of this" he tells me quietly and I can't control my silently tears that still fall. He kicks the door open and puts me down on the double bed kissing me on my head, he looks at me.
"Do you want me to stay with you?" he asks me and I shake my head laying down and curling up.
"If you're sure, I'll come and check on you later. But, if you need anything, just shout me and I'll be there" he says and I nod my head watching as he leaves the room, closing the door behind him.
I lay there motionless staring at a picture of Liam and me, it's from when we was in school. It sits on his bedside table and I can't look away. I hold the phone tightly in my hand with the key and wish to just be back in the mansion. Why did we leave. I should of said no. Stupid, stupid, stupid!
I'll never agree to anything that doesn't feel right to me again. I knew something would fucking happen! I should of said no!