One Out Of Many

   I am one out of many survivors who have gone through so much pain and suffering for years without end. When I was younger, maybe about 8-9 I was convinced by someone I knew that it was ok to have sexual interactions with them, this happened twice but both times I never went through with it cause I was scared. I have never told anyone about that at all....

I went through years of verbal, emotional, and mental abuse from my father. Crying even at the smallest of things he did or said to me. Until the early year of 2019 where I had enough and stood up to him, yelling at the top of my lungs to leave this place. I have seen him break down me, my siblings and my mother enough times to finally get rid of him. I was 21 at that time.

My mother had decided to finally kick him out when I had that mental breakdown with him. Even she decided it was time to remove him from our life. When he left there were times that he visited us and told us he loved us and he would still help out, but It didn't last long of course.

My parents talked and had agreed that she won't sign the child support papers as long as he still provides food when needed, and he was happy to do so, but possibly 3 weeks in he told our mother that he didn't give a damn about her or us and that we could rot. As the year 2020 came along he tried to contact us multiple times but we shoved him out because of everything.

The year of 2021, I was contacted by someone who is family to him. It turned out that he had died on thanksgiving, the anniversary of him and my mother. When we all found out we didn't cry, and we didn't care much because all he did was hurt. Call us heartless all you want, but we won't feel bad for someone who abused us and didn't care for us in the end at all.

Right now we are suffering through financial support but this family has been happier and can communicate better after he is gone. I do plan to go to therapy for my mental health soon and I hope to get better with all this built up pain he caused.

Yes, my story isn't long and it's not the worst as you hear from others but I just wanted to share my abuse with many. If you're going through this or something worse just know that you're strong enough to get through it. It might take years but you can definitely make it out of the pain you're going through. Never give up and make sure you surround yourself with people who are there for you, whether it be family, real life friends or even internet friends, they all help get you through big and little obstacles in life.