The Secret's Magic

Kabanata 25

Days passed like a whirlwind. And ever since that night, everything is really chaotic. 

Nag-uusap pa rin kami. He would ride me home. Minsan kakain kami sa labas. Pero masyadong halata ang pagiging ilap niya sa akin.

Pero halos tatlong araw na rin 'nung huli ko siyang nakita. Dati I can confidently say to myself na busy siya, na naiintindihan ko kasi he have his team to lead. Pero ngayon...mapait nalang akong napapangiti. 

It's pretty obvious that he's still into that night. Iniisip pa rin niya 'yung mga sinabi ni Laurence, and I wouldn't be surprise kung pati 'yung tumawag noong nasa Huli's kami ay iniisip na rin niya.

But the things that's bothering me is why isn't he confronting me yet? Kahit hindi niya sabihin, I know that he somehow wants to believe what he heard. 

Gusto ko sana na komprontahin na niya ako. Sasagot naman ako eh, aamin naman ako.

Napahilamos ako ng mukha at mahinang sinabunutan ang aking buhok. "Help me..." I muttered. Please help me, Lord. I don't know what to do.

"CA...bakit hindi mo nalang kasi sabihin sa kanya?" I look up to see Rod who's seating across me. "I mean, I know na it's not my decision to make naman. Pero hindi ba mas maganda kung sayo galing 'yung totoo, kaysa naman sa iba pa niya malaman?"

I shut my eyes so tight. "I-I know..."

Malakas ang loob naming pag-usapan 'yun kasi hindi namin kasama sina Mary at Jam ngayon. The two went sa cafeteria to buy foods habang naiwan kami dito sa room ni Rod.

"It's just that...e-every time na susubukan ko, parang ayaw akong pagsalitain ng dila ko," I groan. "Hindi ko na alam." 

I quickly wipe my cheek the moment I felt a tear rolled down on it. 

Halo halo na kasi talaga 'yung nararamdaman ko. I've been really stuck.

Ngayon ako nag sisising nabulag ako sa proposal ni Mama 'nung nasa Manila pa ako. Sana pala hindi nalang ako pumunta dito.

But...I wouldn't met him if I did not come here, right?

"Pero kailangan, Calla. You see, hindi ka lang kay Almario may tinatago. How about Mary and Jam? Kaibigan mo rin sila, and it's not fair na nag sisinungaling ka sa kanila."

I get his point of course. Aside from Almario, 'yung dalawa rin talaga 'yung pinaka inaalala ko. I know for a fact that they will get dissapointed. Worst they will unfriend me for lying to them.

Baka nga hindi na nila ako pansinin habang buhay.

Rodrigo held my hand above the table and gently caress it using his thumb.

"Kahit anong mangyari Calla, we got your back. Maniwala ka sa akin."