15/4/2021
Paranoia, Anxiety and OCD this is all the shit living inside of me I've got depression for days I've got insomnia I don't sleep my head is in a daze I try to run but my fear drags me back.
I scream but my body won't move I shout but no words come out it's called sleep paralysis I get that shit when I get stressed out, I lock my self inside my room my demons they won't shut up all they do is scream, I hate my mirror a monster lives in there he's called body dysmorphia he taunts me and he won't leave.
Sometimes my wrist and neck tightens here comes another monster this time it's suicide he seems to haunt me even when I'm fine he makes me want to run another blade or hang up another rope but I resist which makes him twitch.
The world it's scared me people they are a mystery this ones called ADHD no one truly understands not even me he just here to fuck up the lives of you and me.
I don't know you and I don't trust you but don't blame me blame him he's called trust issues you see I've been bounced around form home to home I've be screwed over so many times I don't know who to trust or how to trust.
I'm trying to abort these monsters but there's so many more than I can put in words I know we all
Have our own problems but this is what happens when you lay your heart bare when your at the mercy of these monster of mental health.
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Poetry of a foster kid
PoetryThis is a collection of poetry I made from ages 15 to 17 it's about mental health and growing up the last few years in foster care it's a journey about maturing as a kid but also learning to grow and deal with my demons in the on going battle of eve...
