Weak For Him || Darkness Book #1 ✔️

Chapter 106 | Shy Girl

Stacey's Pov

It's been a few weeks since I spoke to Liam and I found out that he's okay. What he told me hurt, but I know he's right, so I told him I'd be open to loving again.. then he hung up on me. It annoys me that I can't call him back to give him an earful on how that makes me feel.
But I need to concentrate.
"Right, you do this, then knead applying as much pressure as you can" I tell Lauren who I hired that same day. She's an excellent worker and quick learner too.
"Thank you for learning me how to do this. I've always wanted to make my mum something that was great!" she says and we both smile. She's been a great distraction.
"Now, you just place them into tins and bake them" I tell her watching her do as I say.
"Good, right.. you can go and have your break now hun, you did good. I'm proud of you" I tell her and she smiles wide at me.
"Thank you Stacey, you're a great teacher" she says washing her hands then drying them.
"I do try" I tell her and chuckle, leaving her to check on the customers.

***

After a long day of baking with Lauren, she finishes her shift and I'm left here alone wallowing in self pity. Could I possibly move on.. be without him and be with another man. Again.. I'd rather go back to fucking Victor.. Rolling my eyes at that thought, I sigh heavily, beyond confused as to what to do with myself.
Making sure everything's clean for tomorrow, I shut up the bakery and close the blinds turning the sign to closed and switch the lights off heading upstairs. Grabbing the bottle of rum then my ganja, I bill a fat joint needing to forget about everything for a night, my birthdays soon as well. Smiling a little one, I pull out rizzla and begin billing quickly.
Smoking and drinking on my own.. and this is what I'm talking about, the loneliness of coming home from work and staying by myself. I'm a independent women who has no one. Great..
I make my way over to Liam's folder and look through it looking at the Paris plan wanting it to happen more than anything. Wanting to love him forever. Needing to..
I swig from the bottle staring up at the ceiling when my phone starts ringing.
"Hello" I say in a bitchy tone and hear a heavy sigh.
"I've missed your voice" Liam says and I sit up instantly feeling the alcohol swish in my empty stomach.
"Baby, oh my god! I've missed you" I tell him and break down. I've been strong for far to long, I need to get this out.
"Don't cry beautiful it breaks me hearing you like this" he says and I can't help the flow of tears.
"I can't help it. I've lasted so long. And really tried to be strong for you, but I can't do it anymore. I need you baby" I tell him crying and he a quiet for a moment.
"I have to go baby, I'm sorry" he says and hangs up. Fuck! Why does he keep hanging up on me! And fucking apologizing.. What does he have to be sorry for? He's being selfless and putting my wants and needs first. But, I don't care about me. I need him to want me like he did before. I roll over sitting up and bill myself another joint feeling stressed and not high enough..
When I'm finished, I lay back and spark it hitting call on Sian..
"Hey babe, what's up?" she says answering sounding rushed.
"Liam called" I tell her and she sighs..
"I'm at work babe.. Do you need me?" she asks and I shake my head.
"No, I'll be okay. Don't work to hard. Bye" I say and hang up looking at the time to see it's 7pm and I'm starving.
Dialing Trent, he answers straight away.
"Sweetheart, you okay?" he asks immediately and I smile.
"I don't know.. but I'm hungry" I tell him and he chuckles.
"Drive through and a catch up?" he asks and I nod, smiling.
"Absolutely, pick me up please. I'm at my apartment" I tell him getting up and running my hand through my hair.
"I'll be there soon, sweetheart" he says and we hang up. Putting my phone down, I look myself over in the mirror and decide to change pulling my grey, skinny cargo pants and a while long-sleeved cropped top before slipping my feet into white ballerina shoes.
Applying a little gloss to my lips, I hear a horn beeping outside and look out the window seeing Trent so I make my way out grabbing my phone and purse on the way.
Bouncing down the stairs, I exit through the back doors and climb into the Bentley passenger seat.
"Hey, it feels like so long since I've seen you" I tell him as I pull on my seat belt and he smiles at me.
"I know sweetheart, I've been a little busy, I'm sorry.. but I'm here now, talk to me" he says pulling off.
"Liam called me again, he keeps apologizing randomly and I don't know if it's because he's gonna do something and be put in isolation. All I know is that I miss him but he won't see me" I tell him and he sighs turning the corner.
"He's just doing what he thinks is the best sweetheart. You have to respect that. What else did he say?" he asks me and I shrug.. so much but not enough..
"He wants me to move on. But I can't do that" I tell him honestly and he nods.
"I pushed my wife away before she was my wife. She stood by me for ten years and I married her when I got out. Liam has a plan sweetheart. He's not doing this to be cruel and break your heart, I can see me in him at his age. You have to trust him" he says and I sigh nodding knowing he's right. He pulls into a drive through and orders us a bunch of food off the menu. Driving around, he pays and takes the food and parks up in the car park handing me a burger.
"You're amazing and I don't know what I'd do without you. And I was thinking, you're more of a dad to me than my own was. Thank you Trent, you mean so much to me and everything that you've done for Liam as well, I don't know how to repay you" I tell him honestly because he's priceless and he just grins at me.
"You're like the daughter I never had and I'm so proud of you sweetheart. Just be happy like Liam asked. That's all I want for you sweetheart, you're thriving and it's amazing to watch.. You're no longer that shy little girl I ment long ago" he tells me and chuckles. He's right, I've grown up so much over this year because a lot has happened in my life. I'm officially an adult! Can you believe it..