Thoughts

Am I Crazy?

Sometimes I wonder if I'm actually insane. Yeah, I know.

"Great way to start your book, stupid."

Just shut your face, asshole. Please no flags.

Focus on the topic, Madyson.

Sometimes I find myself talking to myself. Well, not really, kinda the opposite, in a way. Like how talking aloud to yourself is one thing. But I actually have conversations in my mind as if another person is there. Sometimes it'd go as far as me imagining someone I see in everyday life sitting next to me.

This usually happens when I'm alone and lonely. The only way to stop this is to listen to music.

And there's one reason I listen to music in a dark corner on the bus.

That sounded strangely stalkerish.

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Moving on.

So yeah there's that. Then there's the fact that I tend to come up with ways people would do something bad to me.

Like how my brother would ask me for, like, three favors one day. Just like, randomly. I'd say how he relied on me too much, and he'd get mad, then, all of a sudden it's this big deal.

Except it's gotten to a point where this is actually common for me to do. I don't get it.

Then there's the music I listen to. Ever hear of the band "Mumford and Sons"? If not, don't worry. Only the person who introduced these guys to me knows who they are. Basically they write songs in a variety of genres.

My favorite song is written by them is called "The Cave". Now I've been told that this is about Hannibal the Cannibal. If you don't know him, I'm betting you can guess what he is infamous for by his name.

Nonetheless, this is a rumor. His name isn't truly mentioned in the song. However, even if it's not true, the song constantly has words implying suicide, being tied up, and running from fear.

This is not the only song.

My second favorite song happens to also be by them. It's called "Little Lion Man". Given, this song isn't as strange, but it's strange. You just have to listen to it to understand. I would put it in the box-thingy, but I still don't know how to do that with video, especially on an iPod.

And even more on the fact I'm crazy, I'm currently typing this at 5:36 AM on a Sunday. That enough for you?

No?

Really?

Okay, whatever.

Well, I'm constantly thinking I have superpowers. Now, wait, hold on! Before you call the Asylum, lemme explain.

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Okay I got nothing. But this is seriously something that I think from time to time. For instance, I once thought I could allow people into my mind. Another, I truly thought I was part cat, and I chased around people and hissed at them.

Yeah...I wish I was joking on that one too.

But yeah. I think I have valid proof that I'm going insane now.

Such joy.

But wait, there's more!

Okay so I have this one gaming app called Clumsy Ninja. The idea is to train this floppy and clumsy ninja to become a master ninja.

There's often a time where the objective would be to simply get the next color belt. And when this happens, and I've used up all my equipment, I get bored.

And I torture the poor dude.

I make him bow to me and take pictures of it, tie him up with balloons (so he's suspended in mid-air) and beat him, and I freeze him in awkward positions using a potion and leave him to collapse after he un-freezes.

I'm one twisted mofo.

Comment weird things you do in your spare time. Are you a twisted sociopath torturer like me? Or are you just a quirky bish who likes randomness? Go ahead, speak up! This is a No Judging Zone.

There better not be or else I'm going to have to put someone in my book that the Ninja's in.

Thx,

MM✌🐢