Weak For Him || Darkness Book #1 ✔️

Chapter 109 | Loneliness

Stacey's Pov

"Oh my god! I can't believe it's Wednesday already, I'm so excited to talk to him but he's gonna ask about Victor babe" I say to Sian and she sighs..
"It's best if it comes from you, you can keep him calm" she tells me and I laugh.
"It doesn't work like that babes, I need to be with him.. touching him" I say and depress myself at my words. I haven't seen him for 8 months and I miss him like crazy.
"Well, either way you have to tell him today, stop putting it off" she says and I sigh.
"I'll tell him. I need to go he'll be calling soon. I need to prepare myself" I tell her and she laughs.
"Alright, bye babes" she says and we hang up.

***

I sit in my bed, leg rocking anxiously and my phone suddenly starts to ring. Taking a deep breath, I answer it..
"Hey, how are you?" I ask him sounding more cheerily than I intended.. Fake as fuck.. shit!
"What's wrong beautiful? Talk to me" Liam says reading straight through me. It's now or never..
"Erm.. I have something to tell you but I'm scared to tell you baby" I tell him nervously, but what can we do..
"Just tell me baby, you have no reason to be scared. I promise I won't lose my head" he says and I sigh needing to tell him regardless.
"I've been fucking Victor baby, I'm so sorry" I tell him and I hear nothing.. huh?
"Baby it's okay, don't be sorry. You did as I asked, it's cool" he says and I sigh heavily.
"I think of you though, baby" I tell him needing him to know and he groans.
"I'm just happy your happy, please stay that way beautiful" he tells me and I smile. I can't believe he hasn't flipped his shit or hung up even and ended up down the hole again.
What the fuck is happening? Why is he so calm? I'm confused.. But glad he's okay..
"I'm really trying to be happy, but it's hard without you" I tell him and he sighs..
"Keep trying, and let's not go down that road" he says sounding emotional.. I miss you soo much too baby..
"I'm so proud of the way you're handling this baby" I tell him smiling again.
"Thanks beautiful, I won't lie, I'm fuming that your fucking that imbecile again, but I'm happy you're getting what you need" he tells me and I laugh hearing him say it again.
"Thank you for being honest because your being awfully calm, Liam" I tell him wondering what he's gonna do when he hangs up.
"Baby, I'm good.. I promise, I just need a bit of time to clear my head. I won't do anything stupid, I'll call you tomorrow. I love you beautiful. Don't be sad and down, you have no reason to be. I'm proud of you" he says and my heart melts for my baby. Why would I want Victor?
"Okay, good. I love you too baby, have a good day handsome, bye" I tell him and I hang up with a smile on my face. I can't believe how he just reacted.. I was expecting shouting and banging around then being hung up on. I love him more and more each day that he's gone. I miss him so much my eyes start to water thinking about him. I'm extra happy, I get to talk to him tomorrow too. I'm not gonna over think by assuming he wants me back, I'm just ecstatic that he's letting me back in. I really want to see him next. I hope..

***

"Lauren, I need a batch of cupcakes with chocolate icing and four loaves of tiger bread" I call out while I serve the customer waiting.
"What can I get you- oh Victor, what you doing here, I'm a little busy" I Usher him to the side while I serve the customer behind him.
"Yes ma'am, what can I get you" I ask and she smiles.
"A box of your blueberry sugar donuts and the white chocolate gateau please, hun" she says and I nod smiling at her as I begin to box up her items and exchanging with cash.
"Keep the change" she smiles at me and walks off. I quickly serve the next customer before turning to see Victor.. watching me with a smile and I'm hoping he doesn't get the wrong idea about this thing we're doing. It's just sex until Liam comes back home. What is he even doing here?
Walking over to him, I take a seat at a empty table and watch him sit next to me.
"What you doing here?" I ask him bluntly and he just smiles.
"Just thought I'd surprise you at work babygirl" he says all casual, smiling at me and I furrow my brows. What!?
"Wait.. we're not dating Victor and we're not friends. We just have sex.. You need to stop this or our arrangements off" I warn him and he sighs. Great..
"I miss being with you, outside of the bedroom" he tells me and I sigh, shaking my head.
"I can't do this right now Victor, I'm at work, shit" I say to him and he stands up and suddenly hugs me. But this is what I needed.. a fucking hug.
"I'm sorry, I needed to see you babygirl" he says and I sigh at the name again. Why won't he just stop..
"You should go, I'll call you, okay. Don't be showing up here again unless your buying something" I tell him pulling out of his warm embrace..
"Okay, I'll keep that in mind for next time" he winks at me and walks off. Breathing a sigh of relief. I get back to work and helping  Lauren.

***

After a long day, I finally sit down on my sofa and kick off my shoes with a sigh. I love my bakery but being on my feet twenty four seven is a bitch.
Grabbing my glass of wine from the coffee table, I sip it as I look at my phone seeing a text from Trent.

Trent: Hi sweetheart, last minute break with Eva.. I'll be back before your birthday, don't worry. Have some fun, you deserve it! X

Me: Hey! Aww, that's amazing! I hope you both have fun, you deserve it too! I'll see you soon. X

Smiling as I hit send, I wonder where there off to and I bet it's damn hot too! Soo jealous.
Sipping my wine, I let my mind go back to the past and when I wasn't so lonely..
Wiping away the stray tear that runs down my cheek thinking of Liam and how happy we were in the mansion, how free I felt even under the circumstances. Liam has always brought me out of my shell and I need him to come back to me.

"I feel so happy here with you baby"

"I never feel alone when I'm with you. You're my happiness and I promise to never stop doing what is best for you my queen"

That's exactly what he's doing now. Keeping his promise. Doing what's best for me. Ughhh!
I hate it, why won't he just be selfish and take me when that's all I want! Dammit!