Weak For Him || Darkness Book #1 ✔️

Chapter 113 | Set Free

Stacey's Pov

Hearing Liam say goodbye was hard. I watched him walk away from me and I silently cried walking to the car, where I'm currently on my way home.
I wipe my eyes knowing I can't break down until I get there and that's hours away. I don't know how long I can wait. I grab my bag that I left in the car hoping to not have to use it but hear I am grabbing the bottle of rum and swigging slowly from the bottle letting my tears fall. I can't believe he's actually 'setting me free'. Not even pushing me away this time and there's nothing I can do to change his mind. He's gone until I see him again one day. How did this happen?
I drink more from the bottle and spark my joint, opening the window a little and close my eyes. I know he's doing this for the right reasons but I'm gonna struggle a lot. He's doing this because he loves me. I have to keep reminding myself of this.

***

Pulling up outside the bakery, I smile and thank the driver grabbing my things and climbing out. Walking through the back door, I head up in the elevator trying to still hold back the flood ready to burst. The doors open and I rush out to my door, opening up my apartment and slamming the door shut before falling to my knees. I let out a loud scream that I've been holding in for two many hours. He's gone.. and, I have no idea when he's coming back.. If he'll ever come back. I can't.. no.. I can't breathe!
I swig from the bottle in my hand and continue screaming out and crying. I curl up on the floor next to my front door and cry feeling my body wracking with all the emotions. How could he just set me free.. that easily.. does he not love me?
I drink more while I have these horrid thoughts and cry more. Why fucking me?
After a while, I pull myself up and look around with a sigh. This is me now.
I need to get used to it. I pull my phone out and call Trent.
"Hello sweetheart, how did it go?" he asks me and I can hear the hope in his voice.
"We're done, he's setting me free" I tell him trying not to cry again.
"Fuck! He actually set you free, and not pushed you away. I'm so sorry sweetheart" he says and I nod my head wiping my eyes. It's always the same.. he pulls me in and then I end up on my ass.
"I've cried enough, he doesn't want that. I need to live my life Trent" I tell him sadly, thinking I can't imagine doing it again without him.
"You do, sweetheart and I'm hoping you're still going to Sian's birthday party tonight" he says matter of fact and I sigh, getting up.
"I have to go, but I'm not wanting all of them people around me. But she's been here for me through all of this. Will you come?" I ask him hopeful.
"Of course I will sweetheart, I'm going nowhere. I'm here for you whenever you need" he tells me and I perk up.
"Great, pick me up at 7pm" I tell him getting excited now and he chuckles.
"Will do, keep smiling sweetheart. See you soon" he says and I nod as we hang up. I need to find something to wear.

***

"Well don't you look beautiful, sweetheart" Trent says as I open the front door.
"Aww, thank you. You look different for a change" I tell him smirking and he waves me off.
"You ready to go?" he asks instead and I nod grabbing my purse.
"Let's do this" I say putting on my brightest smile for him when all I want to do is curl up and cry in my bed and be alone. But Sian's my bestfriend and I promised her whatever the outcome of the visit I'll come to the party.
"That's it sweetheart, keep smiling. Knock em' dead!" he says and I smile grabbing the birthday cake, card and present before following him out.

***

Arriving at the bar Sian's having her party at, I take a deep steadying breath and look at Trent.
"You look beautiful Stacey, hold your head high sweetheart" he tells me with a gentle smile. Smiling back, I look out the window and see the many people walking in and out of the bar. I need to find my bestie.
Heading inside with all her things, I spot her standing with Kai not looking to happy. What's wrong I wonder? She notices me and her face lights up with a smile. That's my girl. She comes rushing over to me and hugs me nearly dropping her cake.
Laughing, she pulls away and looks me over
"I thought you wasn't going to come. Are you okay babe?" she asks me and the answer is no but I don't say that.
"I'm fine babe. We can talk another day. It's your mother fucking party" I cheer and she does a little clap giddy.
"Where do you want the cake baby?" Kai comes up and finally takes it from me. She points to the bartender and looks back to me.
"Thanks for doing that babe, I know you have a lot going on. so I appreciate it" she tells me and hugs me again properly this time.
"I'd of been offended if you went anywhere else. You're my bestfriend of course I'd of baked you a cake. No worries" I tell her remembering talking to Liam while I was doing it.
"Lets get you a drink then" she says dragging me to the bar. I hand her the card and present and she beams with happiness. I knew she wanted the dress but wouldn't pay that much for it.. so I got it for her. It's the least she deserves after being there through everything.

***

After meeting some of Sian's work friends, I drank a lot and ended up bumping into Victor..
"You look like you need some fun babygirl" he says raising his brow and I just want to burst into tears. I hate everything.. but I need this to feel again. I need to feel something.
"Just stop talking and follow me" I tell him dragging him towards the bathrooms. Pushing him into a cubicle, he pulls out a condom and drops his jeans real quick. I hike up my dress and watch him roll the condom on to make sure and drunkly spin and lower myself onto him. I close my eyes and imagine Liam to be entering me instead.
"That's it babygirl" he tells me into my ear as I take him all and moan out. I wish this was Liam. Why does he have to let me go?
"Just stop talking and fuck me!" I tell him not wanting to hear him but Liam voice going around in my head.
He builds up his thrusting, and I bounce my ass off of him, squeezing my eyes closed just wanting to climax and leave. I feel my orgasm start to build and I'm getting close.
"Yes take that dick babygirl" Victor tells me but all I hear is Liam's voice "imbecile" and I bite my lip and climax with a cry. Fuck!.
I start to feel him throb inside me and I roll my eyes bouncing and clenching, waiting for him to finish
"Fuck babygirl!" he growls and I remember when it used to turn me on. Now I just feel nothing. What the fuck am I doing?