Flood (I had all of it, most of it, some of it, none of it)

Never Trust Me

Pov. Katy

Never trust me
The first thing I got told, are the words that make me curious. Your aura is so dark and deep so that it feels like it's trying to drown me deeply in the ocean. But at the same time it feels like you're protecting me from all the bad and that really calms me down.

I should never trust you? I'm sorry I guess I can't do that. You seem so trustful I might regret this but you have my reliance.

You are very interested in this girl aren't you? Her name is Heather. You look at her like she's the only girl in the world. She also thinks you're really cute so I guess it fits.

Huh?
She said she doesn't want a long distance relationship? I'm so sorry man.

What? She told you she's into somebody else... Damn you are very unlucky.

----------------------

I haven't told you, have I? I kinda fell for this boy. You know him his name is Nolan. We often spend time together but I don't think he likes me back... Because you know who he's into. Yes he also loves Heather but she already rejected him. I still have hope that he'll maybe like me.

-----------------

I'm so happy!
I can't believe it. He really asked me if I wanna be his girlfriend. And of course I said yes. I can't believe he really loves me I've never been this exited before. He really treats me like an angel. But unfortunately he called me Heather yesterday, probably just a mistake.

--------------

I forgot to mention, me and Heather became very good friends! We even diyed our hair in the same colors. Sometimes it feels like his brain thinks I'm her. But that's probably because of my trust issues.

--------------

We've been together for 3 months now and it doesn't feel like he loves me anymore, maybe he's going through something. I hope he's okay I don't want him to be sad I love him so much.

--------------

5 months,
Now I'm sure he doesn't love me and probably never did. He doesn't spend time with me at all. But that's not the worst part. The only thing that drowns me more in depression is you. No, not you but your absence. I know you have better things to do. But please stay you mean so much to me.

---------------

You really don't seem okay. How are u?... Who are u? You don't seam like yourself. You told me you've only been acting like you're happy all the time. You did it for so long, you don't even know when it started anymore. But it's okay. I gave you a promise and I won't break it. I won't leave you like the others.

---------------

You make me feel better just with your existence. I don't wanna say it because I know you can't show feelings but sometimes I feel like you are way more important to me than I'm to you. But you proofed me several times that I have not a thing to worry about. But now I ask myself... Why shouldn't I trust you? You never let me down...

---------------

---I----

---------------

DON'T DROWN
Isn't that what I said?
I guess I didn't listen to myself
I'm drowning in your soul
But you won't let me suffocate <3
You are wonderful
Please never leave me
I guess you wont.

-----------------

If you ever take a swim in his icy-water... Expect to run out of air. I'm only still breathing because he allows me to.
He could change my whole life with one massage. I can just hope that he won't.

------------------
I left
I'm sorry
I know I promised
But you destroyed me
You killed me
The others
They also killed me
They asked me why I'm gone
I just told them I moved on
Don't drown in your self please
Maybe... U didn't let me be a part of you because you knew I needed you,
But because I was your air...
No, you took my air
But you also gave me space to breath
I don't understand

--------------
We met again
We didn't but we did
I'm sorry
You didn't kill me I killed myself
You are perfect
I still trust you and you still trust me
I think we both are doing better
Now I'm not ur air and you aren't mine
We share our air
But I think we would stop to breath the second the other one does
We both need each other
I meed you
Please don't leave
I do love you