Was Never Yours

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He told me not to get attached to him but I can't help I get. I mean loving someone isn't a crime right? Ik it's impossible to get something from him I'm hopping. Still, I'm trying IDK why. Maybe I like him so much that's why or I'm just not in my sense

7 a.m Ray bite my shoulder and forcefully woke me up. I knew what he wanted so I turned and mentally got prepared. He started biting my neck to lips and it started bleeding but who cares. I can't move, moan, or enjoy anything but stay still. I can not help but have to accept what he's giving to me cuz I'm his paid wife. He all of a sudden pushed his hard dick inside me without any warning I arched my back in pain and screamed. He forcefully holds my mouth so that he can't hear my moan. He's just enjoying his thing and here I'm staying helplessly.

[Ray is a billionaire. He buys me a huge amount of money. Like I needed money then ray give me a proposal for it and I had to accept it. I lost my parents at the age of 16th. So I've to work and study at the same time. I'm all alone from then. So When I was in university teacher told me to pay the fees or else I'll get kicked out. I beg them but no one supports me but Ray did. He paid all the money that was due but give me one condition. I've to marry him for this money. That time I was so blank I accepted this and now I'm suffering? Or sometimes I'm enjoying so confused with this]

Ray went to the office after this hot session. I was in bed lying helplessly. My body is paining for real. I can't walk I guess. Last night he fucked me for 5/6 hours and now ahhh how can I gonna do my work. If I don't do my work he'll kill me in the evening. I gotta go ahhh- I talked to myself and tried to wake up from bed.

So I woke and freshen up myself then I prepared for the evening moment. Cuz Ray is going to fuck me at night I've to be prepared It's his schedule or the contract rules? and I can't deny it. It's a kind of contracted thing that I signed for that money. Ik I can't pay him back without this so I've to accept and obey what he wants to. Days pass like this and I do not even have any idea what is my future or I don't have the right to think about it? Just accepting only what he's giving?

I was watching tv, a romantic scene came up and I remember the last night. Then I realize "what am I thinking? No, no that's not possible. I can't love him no no no" I closed the tv to stop thinking those bullshits and waited for him to come home. There are 4 cats in the house. He's a big cat lover and I hate cats but have to take care of all of those for him just because I'm in love with him? I was thinking and suddenly the bell
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It's him. I opened the door like a maid and he pulled me closer to him and kissed harshly on my lips, still it was paining but I had to kiss him back or else he'll punish me. He didn't even close the door but take me directly to the red room and said, "you ready right. You can take what I want right?" Nights but I've to obey but I thought if I request him for once and he's gonna listen. "Can we just have a short session? Ok, you fucked me hard 2 times I'm tired please?" I requested but his eyes are getting big and at the same time he was tying my hands with his belts. I didn't say a word now cuz ik I'm getting a punishment now. Get ready for baby. He threw a pillow at me and told me to ride on it. I was too tired my legs are shaking but he's not gonna listen to me ik. my tears are dropping from my checks but I had to

I mumbled to myself if any day he's gonna think about me why I'm even doing this cant no more. it was painful for me both physically and mentally. I started riding the pillow slowly he was watching me and how I'm doing this. He suddenly shouted, "Don't you know how I wanted it?" I was scared and started riding it fastly but he come closer to me and locked my hands as a punishment. My body is shaking and paining for real but none can help me. I'm just a helpless maid here playing the role of the master. I just looked at him with teary eyes but who cares. He ordered me to cum within a few seconds. So I started riding it hard and cum within seconds and just laid down. He then pulled me closer to him and just pushed himself without warning, I cried out in pain but he started ponding hardly. After a long session he cumed into me and as usual, leave me this way.

Lying in the bed like this and thinking to myself  "How could I love someone this way? He's just enjoying and here I'm knowing everything still falling for him day by day. Sick of trying, tired of trying I wanted to be all the things you loved but I lost. I just can't take this anymore. I never met up to your standers. I thought I'll be in your heart someday or you'll think about it someday or you'll give me a chance to become your girl here and there  I Guess I Was Never Yours and never won't be."