Thoughts:  Chapter One

The Mirror

"Fuck, it's already 7:30! I'm gonna be late!" They struggle to get ready for school and happen to look in the mirror
In their head: Do this for him, only for him. Fuck you're so ugly.
They run so they don't miss the bus, they barely make it. They sit in their seat zoned out to their music, to numb their pain of course. Then their best friend gets on the bus
In their head: Oh, it's just Wes, something about him just makes me......Happy.
"Hey, Arlo!" Wes said with a really big smile, kinda scary. "Hello, Wes?" They replied back sounding kinda tired. Wesley gave them a hug because he just knew they need it.
After they arrived at school they went separate ways, Arlo ended up running into a bunch of their bullies; Lynn, Elijah, Noah, and Liam.
In Arlo's head: aw shit, not them. I'm fucking screwed.
"HEY CLARISSA! OVER HERE!" screamed Noah
The Boys called Arlo some slurs and pushed them in to the lockers.
In Arlo's head: It's ok, I'm used to it. put on a smile, Arlo.
Arlo fakes a smile and walks to class, math the one class without Wes.
"Arlo, can you tell me what (34b) + (56-4)= 290. What does b equal?"
"Ummm....9?"
"I'm sorry kiddo, the answer is 7."
Everyone started laughing.
In Arlo's head: I'm so stupid, I'll never do anything right and-
"CLASS, THIS ISN'T FUNNY, THEY TRYED REALLY HARD!"
Silence
"Are you ok, Arlo?"
"Yes Miss. Mathews"

*AFTER SCHOOL*

"Hey Arlo! wanna bus together?"
"No thanks, Wes, I'm gonna walk"
"Oh, Okay. Stay safe"
"I will, Wes. Don't worry so much"

In Arlo's head: The bus was too full, too overwhelming. Well, I'm home now....Home alone, Again. Mom is always working.

"Ugh that stupid mirror. It's actually not the mirror, it's me..." Arlo said with tears rushing down their face