《~skits and feel~》

the poem(wrote this after fight with mom)

I'm tired of this fake love.
I'm tired of these fake hugs.
Mama I'm not ok,all I feel pain,don't ask why I always cry cause I don't know why! I don't know why I have all these restless nights. I'm always tired, sad, and even mad.

My happiness? Oh thats just a mask! Mom, dad pleas don't worry...

I feel like my life is a memory that's slowly fading away, you think I'm just going threw some faze,ok. But this "faze" is killing me. Don't ask for an answer...

I just feel alone...

I know, stupid right I have a good life. But I'm the so called "duff"

D-dumb

U-ugly

F-fat

F-friend

I'm the one who everyone can approach. The one we're the boy I like asks for my friends number and all I can do is put on a fake smile and say 'sure I would!'...

Oh what about me? No one wants me. I'm what they call the odd ball out... I have my pretty friend and then thiers me.

When I'm alone you think I feel free?NO.

I'm never free from school, the feeling that I'm never good enough, the ANXIETY that if I confess to the guy I have licked before its to late that and he's already dating one of my pretty friends. So don't sit here and tell me I'm "fine" because I'm not.

I'm empty...

I'm sad, I'm mad, I have to were this mask....

I'm alone, confused about life, I'm alone or at least that's how it feels.

You say people love me ok,but I don't think ul secsseed.....

Maybe we'll see.

A/n:
Ok so I wrote this in 2020 after I had I big fight with my mom...I tend to write what I feel instead of actually telling somone so I had wrote that and felt like I had to get this out into the world.