A Life Without You [Completed, Published Under Ukiyoto Publishing]

28.

Stella Emery Baustista

Pakiramdam ko ay nabugbog ang katawan ko sa sobrang bigat at sakit na nararamdaman ko ngayon habang pilit 'kong iginagalaw ang sarili. I slowly opened my eyes even if my head feels to heavy... I stood up.

I did not know how long I was alseep. Napagtanto 'kong wala rin akong suot ngayon na wig. Everything I hid was revealed by just a single thing. I messed up.

Tumambad sa salamin ng bintana ko ang buo 'kong pagkatao. There were bruises on my skin, ang dumi nitong tignan. My skin is ivory light kaya kitang-kita ang mga pasang nasa katawan ko. I was wearing my beanie. Naka-hospital dress, naka-dextrose, at naka oxygen mask ako.

Nakakatawang isipin na nabuhay pa rin ako sa lagay na ito, but I already know that things are shorter than I thought. Hinang-hina na ang katawan ko. Wala na akong lakas na natitira para magpatuloy pa.

Tapos na ang lahat, I found Ate Sky. That the people in my dreams are real. That the man I love was behind of all the mystery that I was trying to solve. Ubos na ang lakas ko para sa laban na pinaghahandaan ko. Ate Sky was already gone two years ago. But, I just want to see her parents from her different family. I want to thank them for adopting my sister.

"You're awake, that's a good news." Isang matandang lalaki ang naglakad papunta sa gawi ko.

I just stared at him blankly.

"How are you feeling?" He asked.

"I'm fine, where are they?" I mumbled.

"Outside, your mom and dad took some rest. They were up all night waiting for you.  Your friends and even Noah." Nagpamulsa ito at huminto sa paglalakad nang makarating siya sa harapan ko. He was wearing his reading glasses and was still glancing at me.

"Did you know why I didn't have you as my patient, Stella?" Doc Rivera asked.

"Why?"

"I was afraid... but, seeing you just like Sky or should I say Savviena the former girlfriend of Noah's brother. Makes me so miserable. I belittled myself. I'm ways asking myself where did I go wrong?" He sighed.

"Let's go back from the year where it all started, kilala ko ang ate mo and I know her real family is... at kayo 'yon. When Eina passed away, weeks after sumunod ang kuya ni Noah. May alam ako sa relasyon nilang dalawa. Wanna know what's reason? Love. I'm afraid to have you as my patient dahil baka tulad ni Savviena mawawala ka rin sa akin and I'm pretty sure that the history was just repeating itself."

"Why are you telling me this, Doc Rivera?" He bowed his head down and played with his feet.

"May relasyon kayo ni Noah, hindi ba? Noong araw na na-admit ka rito. Nandito na rin siya. He's already inlove with you since the first time you two have met." What is this? Naguguluhan ako!

Ano bang ipinaparating sa akin ni Doc Rivera?

"Still confused? Lay down, and close your eyes again. You need to rest. I'll tell you all of the secrets I know that you never knew until now." Sambit nito atsaka tumalikod at diretsong naglakad palabas ng kwarto.

"Full of mysteries... I'm exhausted." I whispered on myself.

I did what he said, pumikit akong muli at pinipilit na matulog nang bigla akong makarinig muli nang pagbukas nang pinto at yapak ng mga paa psyungo sa direksyon ko.