My name is Katrina//Niall horan//

33. Stop tormenting me

KAT'S POV

I woke up back in our home in England. The only down side to being home is that me and Niall have seperate rooms I looked at the time. 3:00am. I groaned and fell back into my pillow when I heard a chuckle besides me. I lifted my head expecting to see Niall or one of the boys but what I did see frightened me. I stumbled off my bed terrified I shuffled to the corner of my room in a ball. he climbed off the bed and made his way towards me. Justin was back. He laughed again at me cowering in the corner. how did he escape prison?? He knelt down in front of me aggressively pulling my head up. he smirked evilly will staring into my eyes.

" What do you want??" I stuttered. he looked down and then back at me biting my lip " you." he simply replied. I looked at him confused tears freely rolling down my cheeks. " what" I shook my head completely lost.

" You are now one of the most famous people in the world. you will come with me or" he leaned closer into my ear for the last part " the boys will suffer" my breath hitched. I gulped trying to swallow the lump in my throat.

I took a deep breath. " okay" I sighed. I didn't want the boys getting hurt. I would rather me get hurt than them.
" Can I at least leave a note for them." I pleaded. Justin gave me a stern look.
" Make it quick" he scowled. what had happened to him? My best friend the boy I would've put my life in his hands,had somehow changed. and so dramatically. I bit my lip nodding clambering off the floor. I ran to my desk my hands shaking as I sat down. picking up a pen trying to think up what to say. the tears streamed down my face once again when I finally began to write the note. I took a breath as I finished the boys and read it over

Dear boys,
Please don't worry about me or where I am. Just know that I did it for your safety. Justin came back and said if I didn't go with him you would all suffer. I knew that my only chance was to go with him. so I said I would and I am. I don't know what my future holds. but the time I had with you guys was the best time of my life.

To Zayn, I want you to know that you are amazing and I will always remember you.

To Liam, thank you for always looking out for me and always wanting the best for me. you have been like my father on the road and I'm sorry I have to leave like this. I will never be able to repay you.

To Louis, where do I start?? You always make me laugh and lift my mood. you're my inspiration and always told me to laugh in the face of danger. you are always smiling no matter what. I thank you and always stay the way you are.

To Niall, I wish I could've said this in person but here we go, you completely changed my life and I don't want to leave you but I know that for you to be safe I need to leave you and the boys. I wish this didn't have to happen. but it is I'm so sorry. I lost my fight. but you will live happily. I love you and wanted to grow old with you and I hope that one day we will meet again but I'd that doesn't happen I want to let you know that, you're amazing and I will never forget you.

Harry, I don't know where to begin, you found me and rescued me thank you so much. you mean so much to me and I will never be able to repay you for that. I miss you so much already. I hope that one day I will find you again. I don't know what will happen in my future but I know I will be able to put up with it knowing you are safe. I love you and mum and dad and Gemma so much. please tell mum not to worry. I hope you understand. I'm so sorry.

Well boys I guess this is goodbye. I really don't want to do this but I have to. I'm so sorry if I disappointed you I didn't mean to. yes I lost my fight but it means you can live better. I love you with all my heart and I will never forget you. I may not show you all the time but I really do. you deserve so much better than me and I'm sorry for being just a burden to you. I'm sorry. there's so much more I would say to you but please understand that I have to do this. it's a release of stress and anger by Justin and I'm going to take the heat instead of you guys. we will all be happier in the end. I'm so so so sorry. I love you all so much. I'm so sorry