Escaping Despair

Us vs Despair Pt.1

Remnants of Despair POV (Mostly Sonia's)

'Why is it so hot?'  'You dumbass!? We're on the other side of the hemisphere!? Of course it's going to be hot!' 'Well I'm not the Ultimate Weather Person!'

 'Can you two stop bickering, my devas of destruction and I  are getting annoyed.' 'Why do you care about some stupid animals!?' 'All of you stop arguing, we are getting nowhere.' 'What about we stop complaining and start finding our leader, alright.' 'Fine.'

Izuru's POV 

Jose and Ismael left and went to work. Since we were going to be here doing nothing, they asked us to do some chores while they're gone. So I woke Komaeda up, pored him a fresh cup of coffee, and told him what we had to do for the day. 

After two hours of cleaning the house we were almost done with the chores. We just had to do 3 more loads of laundry, but then what would we do now? 

Nagito's POV 

We finished laundry and we still had half of the day left. So we started looking up about stuff to do in Brazil. A lot of options popped up but only one interested me, the food. I'm not a guy who likes to eat, sometimes I have to remind myself that if I don't, I die. But ever since I met Izuru, he's been helping me with that. But back to the food, it all looked so good. I asked Izuru something about making me lunch. With something authentic to Brazil. 'Sure let's just see what they have in their fridge.' 

How did I get to meet a guy like this. And how has my luck not mess up anything. Why can I be happy now?

Izuru's POV (All is spoken in his mind for this one paragraph)

'Please Izuru I need to see him in person.' 'What is this voice, and who are you?'   'I'm Hajime Hinata, and I'm the one who sacrificed my body to you.' 'I know Nagito from the killing game, please just let me out to talk to him.' 'I need to say I'm sorry for everything I've done to him.' 'What have you done to him?' 'I've been stupid and left when I shouldn't had.'  'Just please let me speak to him.' 'Fine but for only a few minutes.'

Hajime's POV

'Nagito?' He looked confused, like he didn't remember me. Do you know who I am? 'No I don't but what happened to Izuru?' 'He is a part of me, and I'm a part of him.' 'Do you remember the killing game?'  'I was there, Hajime Hinata.' 'He lightened up but what followed was crying.' 

'Hajime, I treated you like shit, I pushed you away I...'  'His words stopped, he did grow a lot from the last time I saw him. He didn't hate himself as much as he use to. 'It's okay, I acted stupid to.' 'I'm sorry that I didn't respond to how you loved me, I was overwhelmed.' 'So please let's us just reconcile while we have the time.' 'But Hajime... I didn't mean anything I said about you having no talent.' 'I just want to start over again.' 'Maybe that's why I came here, too start a new life.' 'It's okay I don't blame you.' 

'Listen Izuru is going to be in control in a little bit, just please say to him you want to talk to me more.' 'That's all I ask.' 'But...'  'Please Komaeda,  "From the bottom of my heart I am truly in love with you.' 'Please tell him, please.'

Nagito's POV 

After I thought I could be happy this happened. How did I forget Hajime, I loved him. Why did he do this? Why is Izuru not letting him be free?I have a lot of yelling to do at Izuru. I'm pissed off at him, why didn't he tell me this?

When Izuru was back in control I grabbed a knife and stabbed him. I was so blinded by anger and disgust that after I did it, I started crying. I thought I couldn't be more broken, but now I'm shattered. 

I took my phone and dialled 110. It didn't work. 'What's the goddamn emergency number here!?'

By now Izuru was dying, I need to figure out what the number is. But then I hear a faint voice, Izuru is trying to speak. I leaned on closer to hear him. He said.. 'One....Nine...Two' 

Those were his last words for awhile. The ambulance came and took him away, with me in the back of the ambulance. They tried asking questions but I couldn't understand them. After we got to the hospital I was luckily met up with Jose who could answer some of their questions with my help. 

Qual o nome dele (What's his name) 

'Izuru.'

Quantos anos tem ele ( How old is he)

Dezoito (18)

Ele tem algum membro da familia (Does he have any family members?)

Nao (No)

1 Hour Later

After answering their questions Jose asked me what happened. I can't tell him I did this, he'll think I'm a psychopath. Aren't I already.

 'Izuru wanted to make something to eat, he tried finding a knife. When he did he slipped on the floor and the knife stabbed him. 'Oh my, I...  I'm sorry.'   'Wait but how did you call the right number?' 'Before Izuru got really bad he told me the number.' I hope he bought it, but before he could ask anymore questions the nurse came back with some news. In Japanese, which I was surprised to hear.

He needs surgery, his stomach was puncture due to the knife. After the surgery he needs to stay here for 3 days so we can monitor him. If everything goes well he can go home and rest. But when he gets home it's going to be hard for him to eat. So I need you both to make sure he eats three meals a day.

I was relieved he was going to be fine but... he's going to remember what happened. Oh Izuru I regret lashing all my anger at you. I could've just talked to you.

The Next Day

When Izuru got out of surgery I cried. Because this was all my fault. If I just didn't lash out of him we could of had a good time. But now he's here, unable to go home. If I could just make this right, then maybe he'll forgive me.