Shattered Soul

Even when he was diagnosed as quirkless, he never gave up on his dream on becoming a hero. To make up his lack of quirk, he began taking up the hobby of analysing quirks in hope of being a hero in the future. He doesn't want to make his mom worry but he also wanted to chase after his dream.

Things..never go right for him. His mother profuse apologies, his absent father, a childhood friend turned bully and the list goes on.

Everyday, he went home with new bruises and scar on his back, lying through his teeth when his mom ask if he was fine. At first, when he received the red spider lily, he appreciate the pretty flower since he didn't know what does the flower represent. Over time, he understood that the pretty flower was symbolic to death.

People wanted nothing more than to see his death afterall.

Soon enough, he went to the bathroom, he was locked in and water bucket splashed from above making him wet. Other times, his head was shoved down the bowl, leaving him drowning in the dirty water.

Even so, he always offered help to others when they needed help. He was kind and generous but being quirkless overshadow all his good qualities. Being quirkless means worthless.

Even him, an elementary schoolar knew that.

As time goes on, he realise a lot of things. The fact that 'Kacchan' that he knew of is dead,leaving a shell of his old self. The Kacchan he knew is a naughty, brash kid but often protected the weak and care for people in his own way. Katsuki though, is an asshole,self-centered,arrogant and made the weak life a living hell.

The fact that 'Midoriya Izuku' is dead the moment he was declared quirkless leaving only 'Deku' the useless behind. Nobody seems to be calling him Izuku or even Midoriya anymore. Only his mother still called him Izuku. As stupid as it sounds, it wasn't enough.

His notebook is a precious item to him as it was the only thing that kept him from going. They were worth more than any limited edition All Might merchandise will ever amount to. Speaking of All Might, he often heard in said main interview that he believes anyone could be a hero.

Izuku clinged to the hope of what All Might were saying was something that came from the bottom of his heart and not just for show. He admires the man, a lot. All Might was his inspiration in becoming a hero to save people with a smile.

Which is why, when All Might saved him from the sludge villain and waking him by slapping him rapidly (even though he doesn't even check for Izuku's possible injuries nor does he called for any medical help), he grabbed All Might's leg when he took off.

All Might promptly told him to let go, it was until he reminded the man of it he remembered that they were high up in the air. Right as they landed on an abandoned building roof, All Might rushes to go before being held back by a question Izuku has been holding back before.

"Can I still be a hero like you without a quirk?!"

He said it. HE SAID IT! All Might seemed to be taken off guard like he was in a flashback or some sort. A moment later, All Might snapped out of it while softly patting his pocket,making sure the sludge villain from before is still with him,and fortunately it is.

After a long moments of truth, here it comes. Those words that he had hoped to hear from all those years ago. To deny that the Number One himself is a liar for the sake of fame.

"Without a quirk? I'm sorry young boy but I don't think so. You can dream but make sure it's attainable yeah? Maybe join the police force or even be a doctor. Now, I must go!"

It shattered. Everything he worked for, his dream,his trust,feelings, everything. All of them is shattered and reduced to atoms. Those words broke him. Even though the man had said it gently with good intentions, it still broke him.

Hearing it from his idol broke him more than he will ever thought. It hurts more than Katsuki telling him to go take a swan dive since he KNEW it would come up eventually.

He laughed.

His knees gave out and let out a strangled cry and painful laugh, letting go of all the emotions he bottled up all these years. The sensation of needle pins seeping through his butt when he was forced to sit on his chair full of pins, the sensation of drowning, acid burns, explosions, thrown to wall over and over again, sludge down his throat, all of it came up again.

Anyone who saw him right now must be thinking that he was insane and they would probably be right. He grabbed his own hair,almost ripping it off which made his hair messier than usual. Tidy,neat uniform long forgotten since then. His clothes is now full of dirt and torn apart.

By the time he was done crying, he felt numb. He felt nothing. No more happiness,no more sadness just hollow. His eyes is definitely red and puffy but who cares?

He finally accepted the fact he can't be a hero.

He considered jumping right then but thought of the blood the people had to clean for the mess he made. He didn't want to bother people anymore.

Izuku didn't even realise that it was now night time, 5 hours late from when he was supposed to be home.'Mom must be worried', he thought. Sluggishly, he picked up his things up and went home.

When he opened the door, he was greeted by a frantic Inko who instantly notice the lack of shine in his normally bright eyes. When asked, he denied the truth by saying he was tired.

Well, it wasn't truly a lie. He IS tired from the breakdown he had earlier. As he stared at all the All Might merchandise he had, he felt nothing. All the emotion he had before disappeared without a trace. He carefully took down all the posters he had, well taken goods had more value than the poorly taken care good,right?

He decided to sell all of them online with a reasonable prize, earning himself a good ¥20000000 ($181976.17). He already planned to buy his mom a one way ticket to America so that she could be with her husband again.

Inko refused to leave him alone at first, but he convinced her that he will tag along soon since he accidentally bought himself a later date ticket, which was a lie. He felt a little bad lying to his mom, but years of practise made it looked completely normal.

Once she left, it was only him left. He decided to take a walk in the once beautiful forest he played in as a child. Once he got there, he was surprised to see the forest have been left untouched, exactly like it was years ago.

It really shouldn't be that much of a surprise, really. Afterall, this is the 'Blue Forest' or it's other name, 'The Suicide Forest'. In the Pre-Quirk era, this place often become tourists main attraction because it's so pretty to the point of breathtaking.

Nowadays though, this place has been abandoned because of how, 'creepy' and silent it is. In the Pre-Quirk tourist attraction book he read before, this forest is so silent to the point it drives people crazy and leading to them killing themselves.

Izuku walked around, deep into the forest until he reached a cliff at the end of the forest. The cliff is certainly high enough to kill him. He took of his shoes and put down the flower banquet he bought for himself earlier.

"Goodbye." He said numbly.

And then he jumped.

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This is my first time writing a one shot so I'm sorry if it's bad >^<
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Published: July 8 2021