Poems and Other Things

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Napapansin ko na papansin na ako. That's why I am staying away from IG, TikTok and FaceBook.

I've thought about it, I don't know how many times. Since 2019 pa ata. You just find someone with the same vibes, but you know all you will ever have is the same vibes.

And I know, I just know. That you will just meet and bond with them at a certain time, and that time is limited.

And I have an idea how much it hurts to stop having feelings for someone because you know you don't stand a chance, or because you know that it will hurt someone. The last thing I want is to hurt someone.

Ayaw ko, because I've been hurt too. And the feeling of getting hurt sucks. You can't explain it, but your eyes will just burst in tears and you have that feeling that something is crushing your heart and that you find it hard to breathe.

And then, what if that person you hurt has no one but him/herself? What if they have no one to talk to? Will they survive a day/night of having those dark thoughts?

And that is why I stopped.

I stopped before it's too late.

I stopped because I know I don't have a chance.

I just stopped.

I will just give it time.