Lemme tell you to the two main groups , so there the group that I am in called three strikes you , out. The other group is called the trio of cuties. Here is the reason we have beef. My best friend Aaron tried to get with one of them and she didn't want him. So now that you're caught up, lemme tell you how I fell for one of them and we can't tell any of our friends because of the risk of losing our friends. Basically it was on a sunny day as i was walking down the street by myself as i saw her walking down the street never realized how pretty she was blue eyes dimples , and freckles ponytail and white skin curvy hips and a round butt , i was blushing as i checked her out as i hit a stop sign falling as my head banged of the concrete of the sidewalk. I looked up as surprised as she was running up to me. She asks” our you uh okay”, I whimper quietly as “ I say yes im fine , but do you mind helping me up”. She put her hands down as I gripped her as she lifted me off the ground. Whispers “ty in her ears “, blushes a little , she chuckles and “says no problem” anyways she says my name Janelyn hbu “ My name is Jake “i said “ you don't remember me” i'm friends with Aaron”. “ She says “ oh you're one of those boys in that trio, the three strikes right she says”. I nod, agreeing and saying “ yes”. Janelyn says” oh my friends hate you guys they think you bunch of horn dogs trying to use us”. I ask “ what about you, how do you feel about us”. Janelyn says ''I don't mind you guys, you don't seem to be bothering anyone , it's really my friends that have the beef with you guys”. Well I” say so we cool , me and you smirks a little and covers my face with my hands” . Janelyn stares at me and says” idk i'll have to see what my friends think but if not then we cant be talking like this”. I slowly start sweating as I slur my words as I try to say” so your friends determine who you can hang out with and who you can't”. I think to myself ( maybe i should just walk away). Janelyn stares at me and laughs as she asks'' if I'm ok”. I stutter my words'' yea yea. Janelyn says “ you look constipated laughing “. I chuckle as ''I say well ima head home cya”. Janelyn says “ goodbye”. I walk the other way as I turn around checking her out again as I head home. I walk the 2 blocks to my house as I enter. I walk in and can't stop thinking about her as I phase around the living room. I go upstairs to my room as I pick up my phone and text the group . I didn't tell them about Janelyn for obvious reasons, but we decided that we were gonna out to gas station , they wanted to do some stupid stuff and try to buy beer with fake ids. So i told them that i will just be the lookout and that the code sound would be coo coo. So I walked outside and sat and waited for them on my sidewalk as my tushy was getting heated. They finally came around 30 mins later. Aaron yells “get in''. I sit in the back seat of his 2021 Nissan Titan xd. Aaron asks me “ if i'm okay.I say “yes”. Aaron says you sure, if you don't wanna do this it could just be me and jay will be fine”. I think ( think should i get out and let them commit this crime or should i join them). I decided to be a stupid teeneager and join them, I thought ( did i make the wrong decsion falling into peer pressure). My hands were shaking from nervousness ( as I decided to think happy thoughts as we got closer to the gas station). Jay finally talks asking me” bruv, are you good looking like a pale chicken nugget over there”. “ I slur my word nervousness as I say y e-ss”. They both give me a death stare as Jay says “ we just playing with you chillax”. So “ we not tryna get beer”? Jay says “ we still don't be stupid “. I sit in my seat trying to keep it together as my hands slowly start shaking as we finally arrive at the gas station. Aaron asks Jay '' you got the ids''. Jay says '' Yeah of course I do “. Aaron says let's get in there then”. Aaron says to me” Be a damn good lookout, you hear friendly punches on my shoulder”. I say “okay”. I told him to go in then . They both nod. I follow them as I stand outside looking for police or anyone who can bust them besides the cashier. I looked down the whole sidewalk not seeing anyone who could bust them as the glass door burst open as they were running out jay “yelling for me to get in the car”. I chase them into the car as I jump in the car and shut the door. I see the cashier running out. Aaron says to Jay” your so stupid you blew a cover after like 5 mins:”. Jay “ apologizes saying sorry to him “. Aaron yells in his face angrily”. Jay smirks as he stares at him. I tell “Aaron to calm down as I pat his shoulder gently”. Aaron says” mhmm fine” . :But realize the next gas station is 18 miles away and I gotta get home”. So ima just drop both yall off to your houses. I think to myself ( what if that went wrong). I think again( why is Aaron so angry today). I lay my head on the window as I stare out the window. I breathe hot air on it as I rub it. I stared out the window looking at the houses in the neighborhood as we finally made it to my place.” I wave goodbye to Jay and Aaron as I leave the car. I walk in the house, go to my bed and sleep. I wake up the next day as I head to school. I put all the things in my backpack and walked out the door and headed to school. Skipping to the first period where I sat next to Jay as I saw him slapping random girls' butts, I glared at him as I whispered in his ears What the hell are you doing the teacher right there. Jay being the idiot he is persuaded to not listen to me, he kept disturbing the class. The teacher called him up to the front as I heard some of the girls whispering and chuckling as he got yelled at. I was too nervous to say anything just because of the risk of me getting in trouble, he came back and sat next to me. I told you “to stop being stupid take a hint damn”. Jay says “Shut up its not my fault you gay”. I'm not, I just know how to act and learn some common sense, you and Aaron are the only reason girls think they were freaks”. You guys are also” the only reason we have beef with the three cutest girls in school”. Jay says oh shut it doesn't matter them hoes dont like us. I control my breathing trying not to get angry as I replied there are no hoes, just not into us because of the fact you and Aaron have the mindset of a rapist”. Jay's death stares at me as I see his fist clench. I say calm down this not the time . I think of Janelyn at the moment like a flash of light as I slowly smile. Skip past to the end of school when I see Janelyn walking down the street. I decided to walk up to her, Janelyn says hey with a dry expression. I say “ hey back then ask her if everything is okay''. Janely says no my parents got into a big fight again and I think they're going for real divorce tear trickles down her cheeks. I slowly wrap my arms around her as I snuggle her tight and say'' i'll be there for you no matter what”. Then she cried in my shoulders as I slowly stroked the back of her hair and said “it'll be okay”. She sniffles and says ty but then pushes me “ and says i can't be seen with you right now my girls are coming go. I panic and think did i do something wrong , and then i think what if my friends find out about this then i run in fear of losing my potential first love and losing my close friends as tears go down my face as i get closer to my house. I walk into my house with the hood over my head as tears drip down my face. I go upstairs, sit on my bed with my legs curled as I wrap my arms around my legs and go up and down trying to think if it's a mistake being into Janelyn. I realized that tryna be Jane is gonna be hard, my friends wont like it and her friends won't like it either. I start pacing back and forth in my room as I think of ways to get her and keep my friends. Do we gotta keep our relationship a secret because I know today we got closer than ever. All she was trying to do is protect me from her friends. All I wanna do is be with her , at this point I don't know. I decided to write my feelings down, I wrote my feelings down in a journal, then I decided to sleep because the pressure of telling my friends about this scared me. Waking up the next morning was calm but I couldn't stop thinking about her. I got my backpack ready and walked out, I kept overthinking the situation that happened last night that i couldn't even focus as i was walking to school, does Janelyn like me or not i don't know , she so confusing , she gives me a little sign that she likes me back and then she does throws me away like garbage the next second . Maybe I'm overthinking it but still she is playing with my feelings and I don't like that, so later today when I see her again ima ask if she likes me back. I need to tell someone about this , but I can't tell my friends or else I'll be a traitor or whatever. Ima have to go to a counselor or something like this a lot and I have no one to tell it to. As soon as I walked into the school I went straight to the counselor's office and told her about yesterday. She tried to give me advice but it wasn't too good , but atleast i was able to let my feelings be known in a safe environment. I still felt weird and in a state of not knowing, I never felt this way and it is very uncomfortable like you having goosebumps every few seconds. It felt like my heart was slowly getting ripped out of my chest , the pain was unbearable. I held my tears in though as i didnt think of her as school went by. I had a flash of thoughts about leaving my friends, but i decided not to sense i knew them sense kindergarten when i had no friends or anything and they've always had my back, but they are selfish and very arrogant, all they really care about is our trio and themselves , and i can't wrap my head around why they so rude to everyone else but me and themselves , and plus now whenever they text me to let me know if im tryna be lookout for the next petty crime the gonna do. Honestly I don't know what happened to them. I remember when we first met on the playground in kindergarten I was on the swings and Aaron said hello to me and asked if we wanted to be friends. He was the nicest person I knew back then till he got bullied 2 to 7 grade , then he stopped being nice and was very aggressive and feisty. The fuel to his fire is really back when his parents had a divorce that is what made very angry and aggressive all the time. Jay on the other hand he was always quiet till he met Aaron we got to see Jay true colors which aren't too bad , to be honest i think jay just falls into peer pressure when it comes to Aaron sense he is so demanding. But back to my situation with Jane ( thinking, was I in the wrong for having feelings for her , or was it just over this bullshit feud both our trios have against each other). I'm normally not the one whos demanding in the group sense im the youngest but i'm getting kind of sick of this , i think we need to end this beef so i can be with who i want and not have to yabber my feelings to some counselor women who thinks she is above and knows everything in the world , hate to say it but that is complete bullshit. I'm done ranting now. I have to go confront Aaron and his little sidekick and tell them how I feel and hope they don't abandon me. The pressure is real. The next day as I was heading to school I saw Aaron and Jay, I walked up to them as my hand was shaking rapidly out of sheer nervousness. I told Aaron” Ihave feelings for a girl that is in the cuties and that I hope that we can still be friends. Aaron has a look of disgust while he yells at me to fuck off and dont bother trying to talk to them again. I walk away not knowing how to feel while I try, cheer myself with positive thoughts but it wasn't going well. Those two were my only friends throughout all my time in school and I just lost them over her. I wonder if this will be worth it in the end when I go to see her. I pace around as thoughts flood my head as I pace around in the parking lot , as I start to panic as my whole body starts to shake as I start to look around and describe what I am seeing around me to calm myself down as I get ready to see them and class. I walk into the building more calmly as I settle down for class, I walk in and sit down not really paying attention to anyone or the teacher as I doodled in my notebook, as I daze off and daydream as i felt like i'm floating as i slug in my chair feeling so relaxed. I heard my voice yelled at from the teacher getting me out of my little funk as she ask me question about the lesson and i didnt know what to say as everyone yelled oooo and had little whispers about me, as I thought it couldn't get any worse , she made me walk up to the front of class to give me a detention slip. I was angry but kept my mouth shut. I was back to my seat , but I still didn't pay attention anyways. Jay whispers in my ears” I'll be there after school today “. Uh okay ill see you there then. Jay says back “ bet but dont do nothing stupid , and just listen to her sense these teachers strict as hell”. I told him to shut up , since the teacher started to give death glares like she was trying to do something. Anyways pretty much the period ends , then i go to all the other classes blah blah , but then finally i have detention we have mr donegan he bald has no eyebrows and is strict as hell he lead us to a classroom took our phones got us a piece of paper and wanted us to write a whole essay on why we were here and you wouldn't believe what happens next , I saw Janelyn good to shoes ass walk up in there looking all upset like she was about to cry. I was scared to go up to her and talk to her since jay was there but I grew some balls and walked up to her and asked what happened. Janelyn says “ A few girls are bullying me for my issues at home , with my dad leaving and all they keep insulting me calling me daddyless and talking all sorts of nonsense so i slapped one of them hard until she fell to the floor while her friends looked at me in shock as a crowd slowly started to form until the principal came and saw the girl on the floor and saw me standing above her so he knew i did it and gave me detention”. “I say what kind of bs is that why didn't he ask for your side of the story , he just assumed you were in the wrong, he's a piece of shit dont worry about him , I got your back “. She laid there on my shoulder for around a min as I slowly wrapped my arms around her and held her tight as I rocked her a little bit as i said it all gonna be okay. I slowly started realizing that everyone was staring at us including Jay not knowing if that would end up backfiring. I let go of her and sat down, but luckily it seemed like she knew what I was thinking and still sat next to me. The presence of everyone gaze at us started to scare me so I started to panic a little letting my thoughts flood in as my hand started to shake. She put her hands over mine as she whispered in my ears*everything will be fine don't worry let them shame us but it doesn't matter *. I start to calm down as the teacher finally started to do his job and take our phones and devices and just made us sit there and wallow as he left the classrooms with our phones . I was sitting there with her as jay finally got out of his she'll and said *what you doing with this bitch she isn't one of us * gazing us with a glare death of his black eyes. I finally decided to man up and stand up for her. Jay just stayed quiet and the awkwardness filled the room as everyone was staring at us while nothin happened or was said. I chuckled awkwardly as my face started to turn red. Janelyn held my hand supporting me as I just waited for this hell to end. Finally after an hour of this the teacher finally comes back and gives us our devices. Janelyn and I fled and we talked and I told her about my fear of losing my friends over this. janelyn told me not to worry if they were are really my friends that they will support me no matter who I like or am with . I ask so we are a thing now . Janelyn answers awkwardly with shaky a voice* if you want to be *. I reply *yes I want to be with you*. Janelyn chuckled awkwardly and replied* well okay *. I will walk you home okay. So We walked home together thinking nothing of it then all the sudden I heard a loud bang.I saw janelyn drop down to the floor as blood gush out her chest as I fell to my knees holding her hands as my emotions flooded my head. I reacted immediately but stupidly because I wasn't thinking properly trying to give her CPR. Janelyn said her finally gasping words *I love you*. I cried hard while pacing there as all of our memories flashed before my eyes.
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