Ang lamig ng panahon pero ang panahon na ito ang pinaka-gusto ko asa lahat ng panahon sa mundo. Ang sarap matulog kapag malamig, ang sarap manood habang umiinom ng hot choco, ang sarap umiyak, ang sarap yumakap.
Kaso, sino namang yayakapin ko? Tumawa ako nang mapait.
"Gusto ko nang mainlove! Gusto ko nang mainlove, Lord, please!" sigaw ko habang umuulan sa tahimik na daan. Nafufrustrate ako. Yakap-yakap ko ng sarili ko sa madilim na highway.
Walang tao, walang ilaw. Puro puno at ulan ang aking kasama. Tamang-tama para maglabas ng sama ng loob.
Sa loob ng 27 years kong pamumuhay sa mundong ito, hindi ko pa rin maisip kung bakit hindi ko pa nararanasang mainlove. Sure, there are flings that I can call whenever I want to ease boredome.
Pero kailan yung seryosohan? Kailan ko mararamdamang magmahal? Ang hirap kasi pag yung feelings mo, alam mong mababaw lang. Kailan ko mahahanap yung taong pang-habangbuhay?
Patuloy pa rin akong umiiyak sa kalsadang 'to, diretso ang higa at nakatingin sa langit. "Lord, kailan ba?" ilang beses ko Siyang tinanong. Kailan ba kasi? Bakit ang tagal?
"Lord, alam mo. Sige, okay lang kahit masakit. Ang boring ng buhay ko, Lord. No joke, nakalagay man lang ba ako as main character? Bakit parang wala akong story, Lord?" sige lang, pagurin mo ang sarili mo kakaiyak.
December 27, 20xx. Another day of fulfilling my bucketlist. Sobrang tagal na rin simula nung ginawa ko yung last na item sa bucketlist ko, pero last night was so heartbreaking yet fulfilling. I never imagined that I can feel emotions that intense.
"Happy birthday, Anj!" bati ng mga officemates ko as I entered the building. Wow, they have a surprise for me pa! Balloons are everywhere, and Niño, someone who has a crush on me in this building, holds a cake for me which says 'Happy birthday, Anj! from Team T!'
"Thank you, guys! I'm sorry I wasn't able ti celebrate with you yesterday." I told them as I receive their gifts for me. "Ano ka ba, it's okay! As long as you're happy!"
After a little chitchat, everyone was back on their seats while I continue to open their presents for me. I can't wait to be home and use it all. There are clothes, make-up stuffs, bags and shoes! Thank, God, for this working environment!
I am working as a government employee for about 2 years now. Keeping every gifts away from my desk, I started working na.
All of these might be my dreams coming true, a healthy working environment, good colleagues, financially stable life, and my parents happy.
But where is the only one missing? Where is my lovelife? I have been dreaming of being in love and being loved ever since I opened my eyes. 27 years later, there's still none.
I was actually hoping to experience it in college, pero ngayong nagtatrabaho na ako ay wala pa rin. These colleagues of mine, either may asawa, may jowa or masayang single.
But I was never really happy about being single. I wanted to be taken care of, I wanted to come home hoping to see someone waiting for me.
