Losing Love • Malec

Chapter 29

OKAY SO FIRST A HUGE THANK YOU
I HAVE 2.6K CAN YOU HEAR MY SCREAMING ITS KINDA LOUD OKAY. ANYWHOOO

I changed the cast on this to ridiculous stuff because why not you should look after you're done reading this okay?

SO. I got a lot of your guys' input on wheter this should be a chapter of just Alec's letters or whether that should come later or I should not do it at all. AND i probably just made a ton of spelling mistakes I am sorry. The chapter will not be like that

im just lazy in my authors note.
 okay so this chapter will be the letters I KNOW YOU PEOPLE DIDNT WANT IT BUT I HAVE LE REASONS. SO BASICALLY ALEC IS LOSING LOVE WHICH MEANS HES LOSING ALL THESE PEOPLE WHO ARE IMPORTANT TO HIM AND AS A SORT OF WRAP UP (NOT OF THE BOOK IM NOWHERE NEAR DONE DONT WORRY) IVE DECIDED TO DO THE LETTERS. IT JUST MAKES SENESE. THESE ARE HIS LAST WORDS TO HIS FAMILY AND LOVED ONES (AND SEBASTAIN DONT ASK) BEFORE HE FORGETS HOW TO LOVE THEM AND IT JUST FEELS FITTING TO HAVE THEM HEREE

DONT KILL ME.

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Dear Robert,

Okay so I know that I was probably never the son you wanted. Never mind, I was definitely not the son you wanted. And I want to say I'm sorry I couldn't be who you wanted me to be, and I hope you understand to (maybe) finally accept me and whatever.

As you can see, I'm not the greatest at writing goodbye letters. You were a great father growing up, and I know you've probably just been and a rough place and I've been trying not to judge you, although honestly it's a pretty hard thing to do.

After I go and get this spell performed on me I will not love anyone. And I'll probably never get the chance to tell you this in person (or at all) ever again. So I just wanted to say that no matter what you've done, your'e still my dad and I love you. I hope you can find it in your heart to accept me.

Goodbye Dad,

Alec

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Dear Sebastian,

You're a jerk. Why'd you have to go and have kids.

Like really dude.

-Alec

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Dear Mom,

I'm sorry. I'm sorry for doing this. I'm sorry I had to leave you and everyone else. I'm sorry for everything. I know I should be mad at you when you didn't even come rescue me that day, but it's a little hard to be mad when I have this sense of impending doom.

I hope you understand that I had to do this for Jace. And I want you to go get the medicine and give it to him. Well, you don't have to do it but I just want you to make sure someone does it. Make sure Jace is okay please.

If I ever see you again there's a 100% chance I won't love you. Don't hang onto that hope, Mom. I'm have to do this, and even though I don't want to I don't have much of a choice. I also need you to alert the Clave and do anything you can to get them to help destroy Kara and Ben.

I love you.

Your son,

Alexander

A couple tear stains were found by Maryse around the edges of "100% chance I won't love you" and "I had to do this for Jace".

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Dear Clary,

Okay we weren't close. But I am sort of saving your boyfriend's life here so I thought maybe I should at least write you a letter. First of all, you're pretty nice, and you make Jace happy, and that's enough for me. Admittedly, I did almost choke you. Sorry about that. Without you I never would have met Magnus and gotten over Jace, so thanks. I guess we had a decent time traveling through the demon realms (although I do think I got pretty drunk a couple times...not really sure).

Do you think you could bake Jace a pie? Tell him it's from me.

-Alec

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Dear Simon,

Um. I don't know you that well but we both shoot arrows I guess and Izzy really loves you and you helped me when Magnus broke up with me so thanks. Well, have a nice time and watch over Izzy for me? I just realized I'm asking my sister's boyfriend to "watch over her." Well, just be careful Simon. She's not as unbreakable as she looks. I didn't write all this just to give you a lecture on taking care of my sister. Thanks for probably saving my life at one point. Hope you have fun being a shadowhunter. Good luck defeating Kara and Ben.

-Alec

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Dear Isabelle,

You've been the best sister I could have ever asked for. You supported me, and by the Angel I'm going to miss you. I'm sorry I had to do this. It was for Jace.

Keep being yourself, Iz. And how defeat Kara and Ben please. And love the people on your life because you never know what might happen. Love you sis.

Your big brother,
Alec

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THE REST OF THE LETTERS ARE BEING UPDATED IN THE NEXT CHAPTER BECAUSE MY PHONE IS BEING SLOW AS I TYPE THIS