lullabies

chapter 1

Monday~

Scratching my duvet covers off me, my mum woke me up.
"Emily,honey. we need to go to the doctors, for your results.. remember?"
Stuck to my bed, i couldnt get out, with everything going round in my mind. Not wanting to go, i got out of bed. Suddenly i got a really sharp pain at the side of my waist. Grabbing it tight, i walk to the kitchen, with my shorts and loose top, covering most of my shorts, making it look like i have nothing on at the bottom half.
"We need to leave in half an hour, so get ready quickly" mum quickly said, rushing towards the fridge.
"hmm" i couldnt be bothered to talk, so i just mumbled.
"Emily... You know how i hate mumbling"

Quickly pulling on my leggings, I grab my hoodie and run downstairs.
"Right,Ready?" my mum asked while grabbing her hand bag.
"yep" then we went.

I could feel my hand ps shaking already, so scared about what it was gonna end with. Everything going through my mind, i started thinking about how im gonna blend in with all my friends at school if it is a yea, and how am i gonna go out, and what happens if my friend wants to play with my hair, and i havent got any? I will be all alone. Just like i was when i was little.

Finally, we got to the doctors. My mum looked and smiled, but not in a eas with full confidence. I hated that, because, every time she would do that... something bad would happen. And this wasnt the time i wanted something bad to happen.
We waited for about 20-25 mins, just sitting there, no conversation, or looking at each other, just looking at a plain white wall with notices on and a empty coridoor which was only used for people going in and coming out.
"Emily Burns?!" shouted the doctor.
Me and my mum looked at eachmother, taking my hand, i felt like a 6 year old. But i didnt want to let go, i wanted to hold on, hold on forever.

We got into the room, my mum still holding my hand, the doctor sorting through his papers until he found it. Looking. Nothing else.Just looking.
He wiped his mouth about 3 times, shaking his head at the same time, trying to think about what to say. Until he finally spoke.
"Hi,Emily?... yes ive got your papers here and i need you to promise me to stay calm"
With that word calm, it felt qs if a massive ball just came out of no where in my throat. Trying to stay strong, i nodded.
"your results,your results, they came back positive"
I looked at my mum, squeezing my hand harder than its ever been squeezed, with her hand over her mouth, we both burst into tears.
"im very sorry. its a good thing you came now, because your at the early stages of everything. You are going need to come back for more tests and we will try to act as soon as possible, Im sorry"

I cant lose my mum. I need her! Why me? God, Why me?!