Rescue Me

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1 pill.
I examine it.
How thick it is.
How red it is.
Maybe I should just swallow it.
Swallow it fast.
So there won't be a taste.
I pop it.
Wash it down.
2 pills.
Smirks.
That's nothing.
Pops them.
Washes them down.
3 pills.
It could be worse.
Pop them.
Wash them down.
4 pills.
There are heavy in my hand.
Tears form in my eyes.
It's blurry to see.
I know it's not right.
But who cares?
Pops them.
Washes them down.
Brain flooding of memories.
Good times I had.
Only made me cry harder.
Bad times.
Well.
They force me to pop more.
5 pills.
Morgan.
Are you sure?
Of course.
Didn't work last time.
Why would it now?
6 pills.
Swallow.
Wash.
Eyes drooping low.
Head spinning.
Heart.
Heart fluttering.
Heart beat.
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Wait slow down.
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7 pills.
Washes down more water.
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Begins crying again.
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It won't stop.
I take one last pill.
Hoping to end it all.
Empty bottle.
Throw it away.
Stare in the mirror.
Why am I here?
When I can't even please the people I love?
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Bangs the mirror and it shatters
The reflection of the old me shatters in to the new me.
Broken.
Unfixed.
Crushed.
Scattered.
I scream.
Lose control.
Tears won't stop falling.
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Phone rings
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I hesitate to answer.
But I saw your name.
I answered.
You say "Morgan are you okay?
I look up from the floor
You're right there at the door
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Morgan. I love you. Ok?
Ok.