The weather's not good. Nagbabadya ang ulan dahil sa dilim ng ulap. As if the weather felt what his heart's feeling right now. There's nothing to hear but thunder. He walked and kneeled to her grave like he's asking for forgiveness. He's been like this for almost three years
"I'm sorry love...."
And just like everytime he visits her grave, his tears starts falling
"I'm sorry for everything. Sorry kung naging mahina ako. All I just wanted was a happy family pero dahil sa pangarap kong 'yun nawala ka. Kung alam ko lang na ganun ang manyayari... di sana'y inunahan ko nalang si kuya"
*Phone vibrates
He stood up and answered the call. It's his father. Di siya umimik at hinintay lang na ang ama niya ang unang magsalita
"Where the hell are you Harold?! Are you in that cemetery again?! Hanggang kailan ko ba dapat ulit-ulitin na kahit anong dalaw mo jan di na mabubuhay ang patay! You're just wasti- - "
" What do you need " he asked in a cold tone
"We need you get h- - "
Di na niya pinatapos ang ama niya sa sinasabi nito. He already know what he's going to say. Di naman siya ganito dati. Before he was a man of positivity, a man who's full who's full of love and respect. It only changed when Ellen died. She died because of him, she died in his arms. She died before the day of their wedding. His life's full of bad luck.
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"So hija, anong pinagkakaabalahan mo ngayon?" tanong Don Miguel sa kanya
"I'm one of the engineers of the biggest construction company in L.A tito Miguel"
"You're really an example of a woman with success hija. So - - ...Harold, great you're now here" tumayo ito sinalubong ang anak tsaka ito pina upo sa gilid niya
"Hijo do you still remember her? She's your tito Alex's daughter. 'Yung kababata mo re- - - " malaki ang mga ngiti nito habang pinapaalala nito kay Harold kung sino siya pero naputol rin ang ngiting yun nang di na pinatapos ni Harold ang pagsasalita nito
"Is this what you called for?" he frankly asked him
" Yes " diretsa ring sagot ng Don
" If that's the case, I think I need to take a rest now." he turned his back and walked away
"Harold! Harold! - - Hija stay here ok? If may kailangan ka just tell manang. I need to talk to Harold for a couple of minutes, please excuse me"
"It's ok tito. Salamat" pilit siyang ngumiti at umalis na nga Don sa kanyang harapan para puntahan si Harold
It hurts. Masakit para sa kanya na makitang di masaya si Harold na muli siyang makita. It was six years ago the last time they aaw each other. Ang laki na ng ipinahbago ni Harold, parang di na siya yung lalaking nakilala niya dati. He's so cold now at alam niya naman ang dahilan ng pagbabago nito. When she heard the bad news from the Philippines she asked for a one month leave pero di siya pinayagan ng team dahil may malaki silang project ng time na 'yun. Di man lang niya ito nadamayan sa paghihinagpis nito. Was she invited to their wedding? Yes, but she declined. Bukod sa may may malaki silang project ng panahon na iyon, ayaw niya ring makita ang taong mahal niya na ikinakasal sa iba. She already loved him since the first day they met.
Dec.04.2008 the exact date where she will be turning 18 and also the day she waited for a very long time, she will confess her feelings for him. She waited for him outside their mansion. A car stopped at lumabas si Harold with a bright eyes and with...... a girl. At that moment, she knew, he will never be with her. Kitang kita kasi sa mga mata nilang dalawa kung gaano nila kamahal ang isa't-isa. She never wanted to ruin their evening which supposed to be hers.
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"What the hell is wrong with you?! Gustong- gusto mo talagang pinapahiya ako sa harap ng ibang tao ano?" sabay hawak nito sa kwelyo niya
"Sino ba ang nag imbita sa kanya? Di po ba ikaw? So tell me dad, sinong dapat humarap sa bisita ng maayos? Me or you?" tiim bagang na sagot siya
"But she is your friend! The person who made you better before!"
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She's at the garden, sitting in a wooden chair while looking at the bright stars. She felt that someone's staring at her so she look at her side there he is, staring at her.
"Hi...sorry about what happened earlier"
I looked at him and painfully smiled
"Everything has changed. We both can see it clearly" I said
" Yes, I guess they're right. Nothing really lasts forever " he replied and looked at the sky again while I'm still looking at him
I know who and what he's thinking right now. It's Ellen and their past memories. I knew it already after hearing what he just said.
"So...how are you? " he asked
I can really feel the awkwardness right now. The way he talks seems like we're just strangers who met again after a very long time. Well, maybe I'm right, for him I'm just a stranger
"I-I'm fine. Sorry "
"Sorry for what? You're not comfortable right now, are you? "
"Oh no... it's not what it is."
He just smiled
"How's your life and your lovelife?"
"Ito may trabaho abroad and still single"
"Are you serious? Kahit isa walang naglakas loob manligaw sa'yo?"
Kung sana alam lang niya. I had many suitors in L.A lahat galimg sa kilalang mga pamilya pero ni isa sa kanila ay wala akong sinagot and that's because of him
"Meron naman kaso di ko type e, alam mo na workaholic"
"Hy paniguradong ang gagwapo at mga mayayaman ang manliligaw mo dun ah pero kahit ni isa wala kang sinagot? Taas ng standards ah." he smiled a smile that turned into laugh
"Hoy di naman. Sadyang busy lang talaga sa trabaho." I also smiled, he stopped laughing and...
"You know what? I missed this moments" he looked at my eyes
I know na di ko kayang makipagtitigan sa kanya ng matagal kaya iniwas ko ang sarili kong tumingin sa kanya
"M-me too. How about you? How's your lovelife"
' Oh shoot! You're not thinking Lauren!'
His mood quickly changed, I can feel it and see it. Pumagitna sa amin ang katahimikan.
BINABASA MO ANG
Letting You Go
Humor" Is love really worth the pain? " that's the question we someotimes asked on ourselves. Letting go of someone you love will always be hard but this is life, whether we like it or not, we should let them go in order for them and us to be happy. Thi...
