18~SKZ// (unfinished/closed)

Jisung

September 12

As soon as Minho sat down I felt my entire body stiffen. I've liked him ever since we met but I really didn't know how to tell him. For now we just sat next to each other as friends.

"So, you both are almost 18. How ya feeling?" Felix asked.

I've talked to him about this before but he still asks nearly everyday. He knew I was terrified and tried to help as much as possible. He always reassures me that I'll be ok. He's like the parents I never had. They both left me with my older brother when I got diagnosed with anxiety. Me and my brother weren't that close though. We lived under the same roof and he paid the bills and bought food. Other than seeing each other when we get home or when one of us is leaving we don't interact much. I didn't have anyone to look up to but when I was in my darkest place I found Felix and Hyunjin. Me and Hyunjin are closer and he'll always be my Bestie4lifee but I will forever be beyond thankful for the way Felix has helped in ways that no one ever has.

"I'm pretty excited to be honest. I think we're all gonna have the same fate anyways so everything will work out perfectly. What about you Hannie?"

Hearing him say my name gave me goosebumps.

"U-um I uh i-i'm a little nervous. I mean anything could happen you know?"

"Ya I guess but It's always good to have high hopes right?" He smiled.

"I mean, not really." Silence fell among the table when I said that. They all knew what I was talking about.

"Oh look! Here's Chan." Seungmin said, waving at him. Perfect timing on his part.

"Hey Chan!" Felix said happily, "You can pull a chair to the end of the table if you wanna sit."

"Oh no it's fine i'll just sit here." He said, squeezing himself next to Minho. There was quite a bit of room between before. As Chan quickly filled that space I felt mine and Minho's thighs press together. When Chan finally got settled the gap was gone and we were shoulder to shoulder. I could feel my cheeks burning. Hyunjin was the only one who knew about my crush on Minho and I was afraid that was going to change today. Luckily Seungmin started a conversation easing the tension. We talked for a while and eventually decided it was time to go. However Seungmin, Chan and Minho were the only ones to actually leave. The rest of us decided to head over to Felix's house for a bit to hang out.