She's not who you think

She's loud & funny & sarcastic

She seems happy

And maybe she is

Right then and there

She bursts into laughter

Or makes a sarcastic remark

Right then and there

She's not thinking about how

she'll go home and wonder

if anyone really likes her at all

She's not thinking about how

she'll sob into her pillow so

no one will hear

And she'll wish she had someone

that cared and heard her cry

What? People that are depressed

can't enjoy anything

they don't smile

they're just a big bummer

Well that's the lie

you see

She can laugh

She can smile

She'll even make jokes

She'll even laugh so hard

her stomach hurts

But little do you know

how she really spends her nights

Maybe she's happy then and there

She can still enjoy happy things

Smile at things that are beautiful

Her best friend,

they refer to each other as sisters

But even she doesn't know

How fully broken her sister feels

Her best friend, she's been replaced

Not in her heart but just in her mind

And takes physical place

No one could replace her

But surely she won't be back soon

She left the state because of dad's job

So her knife and her have a talk

Instead of a late night best friend call

Or maybe her mind just talks

Does anyone even love me at all

She wonders

Wouldn't everyone be better off without me

She yells but not out loud

Her head is pounding with the headache

That she gave herself

From bottling up everything

From crying so much she's dehydrated now

If only we all could sometimes

Run out into a field and scream for a while.