INSANITY | THE BOYZ

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HASEOL

The memories of that day circulated my mind every time I close my eyes.

I feel dirty and violated.

Sometimes I think about what I did to have this happened to me. I tried blaming it on someone else but it wasn't their fault things like this happened.

I can't even blame it on myself because I can't possibly know what will happen to me.

I even tried blaming it on the gods. All of them.

Sometimes I even thought about ending it.

It's very surprising to me that I haven't done that yet.

But after meeting the 11 guys, my life feels at peace. They will know if I was sad, they comfort me, they will listen to what I said and tell me that everything is ok. And unexpectedly they're good singers, and they will sing me to sleep.

Being with them feels more than home itself.

I did feel cautious when Jisung said that they were killing people that used to be close to me. Because Jisung was still my new friends and I doubt that he will lie to me.

But the more I see them, the more I think that it wasn't true. They will always tell me everything. Even when it comes to trades.

When Eric was with the guy, I almost changed my mind about them. But after hearing their conversation I thought that their history goes way back.

I flutter my eyes opened and I could feel a tear slipped down my cheeks.

"You're awake?" I heard Chanhee said

I tried getting up but my body just couldn't move. It was just to painful.

"Careful"

He helped me sit up and passed me a water. He continued to dab the wet towel on my forehead down to my cheeks. Suddenly he chuckled.

"Why?"

"This reminded me of the day we met" he confessed

The memories of that day made me smile. That was also the day I moved out from the house.

"Where are the others?"

"Hyunjae hyung went to work, the others went back to the house and your friends are downstairs"

"My friends? Who?"

"Seonwoo, Eunsu, Minyoung, Yunho and Nari" he counted

"What are they doing here?"

"Sangyeon hyung thought that they would get hurt because they were the last one to see you so he brought them here"

"Oh..."

"Do you want to eat? I bought the waffles that you loved"

I nodded at him and he kissed my forehead. He stood up and placed the towels on the tray.