Tw : suicide
She left me , great . . .
Back to being lonely again , back to the worst feeling of my life.
Now I sit on the sidelines , watching HIM have a happy ending , watching HIM be all happy and sappy.
I hated it
I hate being like a shadow
I hate having no one by MY side
But . . .
Jack is all I have
I cant do this to him
I cant ruin his family
Hes like a brother to me
I cant ruin his happy ending with my excuse of myself
I really wish
I wasn't like this
I really wish that . . .
That I was stable
That I never had this stupid drinking problem
That Linda never left me
That I was just like him
That I was perfect
That I could be the man she always wanted
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Im so sorry
Im sorry
I . . . I shouldn't even live anymore
I have no reason to be here
I have no purpose
I cant wait any longer for one
Its messing with my head
Im sorry
Its attempting
Im doing it
The noose is around my neck
Im taking the last breaths of my life
I already told everyone goodbye
Now
Peace
At last
I can die
Wipe my existence off this earth
Finally . . .
Goodbye
Goodbye Jack
Goodbye Rose
Goodbye Ed
Goodbye Molly
Goodbye Sophie
Goodbye Linda
Goodbye
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Goodbye world
Dont miss me too much . . .
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Death time : 9 : 59 pm
Death date : June 28th , 1974
Last words : " goodbye world , don't miss me too much . . . "
