My feelings balled up inside for so long. They escaped through my eyes. I don't cry but I couldn't help it. He cared... He always did and never stops. For him to know that I'm like this...it kills me, and not physically because I do that to myself already. I mean mentally. When he looks into my eyes I know that I mess up. Everyday, it doesn't get better...but worse.
"Gabbybear...why didn't you tell me. I mean I know I can be judgmental but not to you. Of all people, you're the only one that I wouldn't judge and yet you didn't say a thing. I know you're strong and I know you wouldn't tell even if you were dying. But sometimes to be strong is to not be so strong." He told me.
I looked at him...not knowing what to say. It was like your other half finding out that you're broken. Isn't that a term thats over used? "Broken" imagine knowing all this time that you're a human and "Broken" it kills you. I mean more than what you physically do. It's like you've lost all hope. In yourself and in what the world could be. I mean imagine being fixed. But imagine the road leading to being "unbroken"? The struggle and the way everyone treats you. Like you're an alien. Imagine being an iPhone...that was repaired,but an iPhone that was shattered still has dead spots in the screen, the spots that can't feel. You're still broken! You're still dead! You just learn to be happier. That's it right...to be slightly okay when you know you're not. You can convince ANYONE. But you still know. Then you start to listen. You're an alien. You're different. You aren't okay. But isn't that okay. And while I'm ranting here....the expression "I love you with all my heart" it's fake...its not true. I mean yeah I guess I'm a buzz kill. But think...you're brain loves or thinks it does. When in reality your heart just keeps you alive and living. I guess everything is just glorified.
"I don't know..." I finally manage to get out.
And this was another picture perfect moment. I was looking into his beautiful eyes sitting in his lap. No one else...
Oh shit...I'm falling for my Bestfriend.
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Okay lovelies! I'm sorry for the shortness but I didn't have anything else to say. I think the rant helped people relate!! And the picture is Brandooon!!! Anyhow, I don't have much to say! So I love youu!!!
I'm out!!✖️
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