wasn't it evident
from how my cheerful cheeks
turned dead
in just a moment
of your hatred
that i wasn't a liar,
that i was needy
of you,
to be the one for you?couldn't you see
that
i wasn't greedy
to have sent a letter
without asking for love
but just to bloom you?couldn't you feel
that my love was pure
just like a lotus in pond,
a singing nightingale,
of a moonlit sky?couldn't you understand
how much you hurt
my already destroyed heart
before you dug it inside the barren earth?couldn't you think
twice before ruining a life,
destroying dreams,
shattering hopes,
cutting wings?didn't you repent
or regret once
for what you did to me
stayed in my broken heart always,
those words,
those moments
of overwhelming outburst?didn't you intend
to break my heart
at a time i was the most afraid,
for reasons unknown as, to you, it wasn't needed?couldn't you give
a little bit of your shade
to someone,
who craved to cover you with dark clouds
when you were burning in flare?why did you break
that child's innocent ignored heart
for he had nothing in his mind
other than you
and for him
everyone else was just ignored behind
Or maybe it's only beautiful bodies
which were in your mind?he didn't ask for love
neither for poems
but
just to know you,
to get chance to help you
to listen to you,
but none of the wishes fulfilled ever.didn't you knew
what it feels to be
hated by the one you loved?didn't you knew
what it feels to be
ignored by the one you loved?was those small pen-crafted
letters jotted down with glue from my dripping bleeding heart
just nothing, useless
for it was not something expensive like what you would get from someone else?how many poets
did write poems for you as much as me,
how many lovers
died everyday for so long as me so silently?how many tried to notice every single letter you said
remembered as if they're the treasures earned?now what should i do
if i didn't had that strength to love fully
in fear of being hated
but I'm already dead
now even being loved
doesn't makes any sense?the world already killed me
for i was being kind
just like you
unkind
now what should i do
when self love can't fill my void?was it so easy to throw
away someone to the bin
say to forget you
or maybe you never ever loved
maybe that's why it was easy to say that?how many of your too many "famed friends"
had just you in their mind all the day
and no one else
all those months
how many?have you never loved anyone
so much as to not be able to breathe
without them,
have you never been ignored
by the people whom you trusted,
have you never had feelings or emotions
for a special someone,
or have you never been broken
maybe that's why it was easy for you to break, forget and leave him unnoticed forever?then why did you?
then why did you?Answer me today, instead of simply running away!!
Cause, my graveyard ghost still seeks answer only from you
"Why did you kill me like that? Please don't go away..."~ An agonised, broken, ruined, destroyed and insane ghost seeking answers.
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Petals of my moonflower
PoetryRed isn't always romance, sometimes it's blood, Moon isn't always for lovers, but sometimes for secret cries, Flowers aren't always for marriage, but sometimes for grave, Petals aren't always soft, sometimes they prick the soul. No plagiarism/No hat...